talk would change anything... 
? I already posted a question about my mom and her situation, its pretty short: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AuG5n__Fi0A_9xuIC0SbO0Xsy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20101031131626AAHdgJE
Thing is I think im the one who is in resentment and im extremely afraid that I will end up repeating this cycle... or maybe my other siblings. Im grateful that my mom takes care of us by working and providing for us... but sometimes that just isnt enough... i think. Ever since i can remember growing up she was always watching movies late into the night.. every night. There was always this depressing dull monotonous atmosphere. i think it has really affected me. its so hard for me to socialize. Ive been depressed for almost 4 years now ever since i started high school and i dont know how i just slipped into it. and i dont know how to get out. i want to get help because its getting really bad. ive been having suicidal thoughts. i have no energy to do anything. i cant be around people anymore.. and i hae myself a lot because ive let her down and my self a lot. what really kills me inside is that even though ive shown a lot of signs of being depressed she just doesnt seem to notice or care, like its normal. one time she saw me crying and she started yelling at me because she said she was sick of me being all mopey all the time and that just made me feel worse. and i just want someone to care and help me out of this because my friends dont understand they just want to have fun and now im all alone and i feel like i have absolutely no support at all. I want to talk to her but im afraid nothing will change. she will never be there for me because she has this problem herself. i dont know what to do... please i need advice... i feel so trapped, i dont know how much more i can take..
? I already posted a question about my mom and her situation, its pretty short: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AuG5n__Fi0A_9xuIC0SbO0Xsy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20101031131626AAHdgJEThing is I think im the one who is in resentment and im extremely afraid that I will end up repeating this cycle... or maybe my other siblings. Im grateful that my mom takes care of us by working and providing for us... but sometimes that just isnt enough... i think. Ever since i can remember growing up she was always watching movies late into the night.. every night. There was always this depressing dull monotonous atmosphere. i think it has really affected me. its so hard for me to socialize. Ive been depressed for almost 4 years now ever since i started high school and i dont know how i just slipped into it. and i dont know how to get out. i want to get help because its getting really bad. ive been having suicidal thoughts. i have no energy to do anything. i cant be around people anymore.. and i hae myself a lot because ive let her down and my self a lot. what really kills me inside is that even though ive shown a lot of signs of being depressed she just doesnt seem to notice or care, like its normal. one time she saw me crying and she started yelling at me because she said she was sick of me being all mopey all the time and that just made me feel worse. and i just want someone to care and help me out of this because my friends dont understand they just want to have fun and now im all alone and i feel like i have absolutely no support at all. I want to talk to her but im afraid nothing will change. she will never be there for me because she has this problem herself. i dont know what to do... please i need advice... i feel so trapped, i dont know how much more i can take..