I really need a guys advise on this situation...?

[poptart]

Ok... I have an ex... he broke up with me cause him mom said that he had to because of his grades. I was fine with that. Grades are important. Then one of my good friends who is also his best childhood friend told me that at church, while I was gone in Indiana, He was kissing one of her friends... I was skeptical.. Then at lunch Damian came up to me and said " You know that he cheated on you right?" ..... That was two people.. This had happened to me before, but I had chosen to trust the guy and I walked in on him really cheating on me.. And my mom had told me it was my fault cause i trusted a guy over my friends.. She said that i should always believe my friends because guys lie. So this time i thought I knew it would be better to be safe than sorry.... My friend said that was the real reason he broke up with me. I was really hurt and angry... All my life I watched my mom get screwed over by her boyfriends (She's had a lot of them) and I didn't want to be her... So I accused him of cheating on me out of anger... It was so wrong.... It turns out that my "friend" only told me that because he refused to have sex with her.... He hates me now... Won't talk to me at all..... i love him... That's why I got so mad... I had never told someone i loved them... And I really do... what should I do??? I feel so awful... Should I just let him go?.. But I really want him to know how sorry i am... not only did I ruin a relationship, but a good friendship too... is there any way I can fix this? should I even try to fix it? This is so pathetic, going on yahoo for this... but I'm desprate.. please give me any advise you can.. Even if it's mean..