I really am ready to do anything to stay sober and clean

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Hi secret support group!
Well I took a huge step this week and I am really relieved/ happy/anxious/unsure/ and grateful (I
 
Wow Derlinda!!!

Obsession free has GOT to be one heck of an AMAZING feeling and you deserve it so very much! I am just so proud of you on so many levels. You have taken the steps you needed to take, you chose you over the alcohol and by doing so.... you have given yourself a new lease on life. I commend you.

Try not to let anyone bring you down. My motto is this. Until they have walked a mile in my shoes and they want to put me down then they are no longer a concern of mine. Positivety is key in recovery but there will be times when of course you will have the "real" feelings come thru. It's really a blessing in disguise. We have to deal with these issues in our own time to better heal and to help us remain sober and clean in the future. It seems we all hold on to so much baggage and once the haze clears from using.... Everything we have been trying to run away from by using drugs or alcohol comes right out and smacks us in the face. I know it did for me but I knew it was bringing me one step closer to happiness.

Keep doing what you are doing. Let those tears fall.... It's ok to grieve over certain losses or traumas in our lives... You will be able to cope with these issues piece by piece and be all the better for it.

Well, I have written a novel yet again. I am notorious for that.

Many blessings to you and lots of love being sent your way sweetie!
XOXOXOXOXOX
 
good for you ,use that med as a tool ,an in the program you will get lots of other tools,to help you, just dont forget where you came from :)scott:wave:oh be careful ,i know you say this is a close friend ,but help yourself first ,it will help you to better help others , women with women men with men ,it just works better that way ,let us know how the meetings go ,good night
 
derlinda, I have to run an errand but will respond to this post as soon as I get back. Just sent you a PM on the other issue. Been there & I'm very proud of you ! Mike
 
Hello Derlinda

Just wanted to add my two cents worth of support here! We all take different paths to sobriety .... it is not the path that matters, it is the sobriety that counts. Do what you need to do for you as long as you do it with a clean heart and mind. Good for you for taking a step that will help you stay sober. As I withdrew off drugs for many months, sober thinking came long before the last pill in my tapers. One guy on this board used to make snide remarks about how long I was taking to taper... it didn't faze me at all because I knew I was doing what was right for me. Who cares the path as long as we end up at destination SOBRIETY!

Best, best wishes
reach
 
wow secrets i cried when iread your post, thank you. 56789 i am doing ok. i have moments of pure simple joy. then like right now i feel alone and so desperate. i am regretting taking the anabuse because i would love to just get drunk and forget all the crap. i think i am going to go for a walk and hit a meeting. maybe even get a sunday with extra ma m-n-m's on the top. better then a glass of vodka right? hope so!!!!
 
thanks scott! i am helping a guy who has been in and out of AA get into a detox. seeing him so sick and covered in his own vomit has made me really wake up. he does not know it but because i have watched him get so sick, i have got even more help then i had befor.
nitenite
 
First of all, BIRTH CONTROL LMAO...that is so true, on some level...

and about your experience with your friend, they say that working with other alcoholics is the most important step to staying sober. Being reminded of where you come from is such a knock in the head, when our alcoholic minRAB start saying "oh come on, just one isn't gonna hurt you'. you work with this friend and see first hand where that 'just one' has gotten him. it doesn't always keep the other person sober, but it can do wonders for you.

as for antabuse, i have seen it start MANY successful recovering addicts on their way to a healthly life. after they tried everything else, and when it was the first thing they tried. good for you girl for taking a new and growth-oriented step in your recovery. remeraber it's YOUR recovery. Don't let anyone else dictate how you decide to stay alive and live free.
 
Derlinda,

Keep holding stong honey! The anabuse is a good move in my opinion. We can't always run away from our problems and expect to lead happy normal lives. We have to face them head on and I believe in you, that you have the strength to do so!!! I really do.

The Sunday sounRAB really yummy and that is WAY better than a glass of vodka!

I hope this message finRAB you well... If I was there I would give you a great big healing hug!!!
XOXOOXX
 
Hey Sweetie,

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't look at this as using it as a crutch at all. I think it's a great choice to help clear your mind from the haze it was in and then when you are better able to deal with other aspects of the addiction then you can come off of it.

Counseling as you know is key. I actually am going to start seeing June 8th!!!! We all need the most support as possible.

As for the one friend that was not supportive of this decision, (think about this hard) Is she REALLY your friend Derlinda? FrienRAB are supportive of one another and you are taking a step forward to better yourself and you life. For that, you should be so proud.

I gotta run honey.. I will write more later!
XOXOXOOXOXOX
 
secrets , reach and mike! thank you for looking in on me! i CANT BELIEVE IT!!!! 3 days and no urge to drink! thoughts of drinking - yes! urge to get drunk while on anabuse? No Way! i have not felt this safe from drinking since my first 6 months of recovery. the amazing part is that with out obsessive thoughts of getting high my real feelings are coming to the surface. anger, crying, and random waves of pure joy!!! i went to dinner with a recovery friend tonight and told him about being on anabuse all he said was "i thought that was birthcontroll". i guess in a way he's right.....:confused:
have a great night frienRAB!
Der
 
alexainie,
hope you had a great weekend! it has been over a week since i have had the obsession to drink. it feels so good to not worry about that junk right now. i have been crying like a spanked baby ever since i started the anabuse. my sponcer was right when she said that my real issue would come to the surface when the obsession was lifted. great ;9
MY Hairspray has alot of alchole in it but i dont think that is hurting me, i read most people can do that without getting sick.
anbuse is PRICEYl but i guess i cant put a price on soberit.
happy week!
 
secrets is so right. we have to face our problems and we can only do that when the obsession to drink and drug is removed. your feeling wont kill you but your drug use can! keep on moving and asking for help!
steve
 
Hey Derlinda,

Yep, ok weekend. Holidays are always a little sketchy for me, too much time on my hanRAB lol, but lots of good meeting stuff going on around here, potlucks and bbqs and stuff if i'm willing to partake. problem is i'm usually too 'busy' w/the kiRAB (even though they're totally welcome!). Sigh...

I have heard that the hairspray really CAN make you ill, as well as mouthwash, etc, so be careful. you may want to find one w/ a lower or no alcohol content for awhile. or go hogwild w/the hair lol ;). just let it fly away! I wish you much luck and peace on your quest for sobriety. I'm so happy to hear you've been obsession free this long. that's awesome!
 
My precious oldest son is a functioning alcoholic, lite beer--and over the last couple of years a little shooter bottle of hard stuff along with it every night--is beverage of choice. The only time he was successful in stopping was when he was on Antabuse for 6 months. How I wish he could get to your place.

He doesn't know I'm an addict, but I'm going to tell him very soon in the hopes that we might be able to help each other.

Keep coming back here. I do, and it makes me feel less alone.
 
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