I Never Thought I'd Fall In Love?

I was fooling around with this guy for a year. I've known him for four years. He has the hold on me, I can't even explain it.

We got into an argument a few months ago. He ignores me for two months. I then ignore him for fourth months. He was calling me every three days for four months.

I saw him about a week ago. I answered his phone call. We just hung out at his house (nothing sexual). We cuddled and he'd kiss me on the cheek.

Tonight I saw him at a party with another girl. I didn't say anything about this girl. I just realized that I'm in love with him. I find myself comparing every guy I meet to him. I hate myself so much for even starting with this guy. I hate myself for letting him in. I feel like complete sh*t. I love someone who will never love me back. Advice?
 
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