I need someone to talk to..?

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I feel like such a loser coming on here asking for advice..I have plenty friends I can talk to but feel they wont understand. My boyfriend was juust diagnosed with ewings sarcoma on the bottom of his left foot. (march 18th) and I feel depressed like extremely depressed but I dont show it, well for him! & Im 18 yrs old turnin 19 in June if that matters, and he was in the hosp for 5 days and I only visited 2 and He would tell me if i was goigng to go all the time and I really really wish i could. But my mom and step dad are being totally dumb. Like They get mad if im depressed my mom told me it better not affect my education and blah blah..and i feel so bad like my bf n his fam want me there and my mom and step dad are being all wierd? And they all get along..so its just hard...idk what to do or say...im jus venting sorry...