I'm currently 19 and i seriously think I need mental help soon. I've been diagnosed with depression for a while, but was on medication. It never seemed to do anything and in fact I have gotten worse since. It's been probably about a year since I stopped taking it since it didn't help. I thought I was getting better in my life but my high and low points have been getting further apart and more frequent. Before i would feel pretty good for a couple days and pretty bad for a few and repeat. Now I go from one extreme to the other multiple times a day. example: this morning i was dreaming about stuff I might have wanted to do in the future to thinking that none of it was worth it anyway.
I'm also having other problems like increasing paranoia and social anxiety. in fact i'm using my alternate email for this that i designed to be completely anonymous mostly for junk mail. I'm worried about my social anxieties since I was recently hired as a cashier at wal-mart but haven't actually worked the floor yet(i'm still doing computer training). i just know im going to end up being fired or something since i'm just not good with people at all. and I already proved to myself that I can't work a factory job or anything since I did for a while and was so stressed out because i couldn't keep up right or would screw things up that I would just go home at night and have panic attacks at the thought of how much of a failure i was at it.
I tried going to a counsoler for a little while, but I'm pretty sure he was a quack since he never gave me any advice that seemed to help and he was the only guy that my dad's insurance would cover. Just please someone give me some advice about something. I'm scared and i seriously don't know what to do. I mean it's seriously at the point where i'm having trouble even thinking clearly sometimes. it took me a good 40 minutes at least to type this whole thing out.
I'm also having other problems like increasing paranoia and social anxiety. in fact i'm using my alternate email for this that i designed to be completely anonymous mostly for junk mail. I'm worried about my social anxieties since I was recently hired as a cashier at wal-mart but haven't actually worked the floor yet(i'm still doing computer training). i just know im going to end up being fired or something since i'm just not good with people at all. and I already proved to myself that I can't work a factory job or anything since I did for a while and was so stressed out because i couldn't keep up right or would screw things up that I would just go home at night and have panic attacks at the thought of how much of a failure i was at it.
I tried going to a counsoler for a little while, but I'm pretty sure he was a quack since he never gave me any advice that seemed to help and he was the only guy that my dad's insurance would cover. Just please someone give me some advice about something. I'm scared and i seriously don't know what to do. I mean it's seriously at the point where i'm having trouble even thinking clearly sometimes. it took me a good 40 minutes at least to type this whole thing out.