So I had some issues with my family. These 4 times he's done something to me are over a course of 3 years. And i just can't let it go. The first time happened when i was 13. I was taking a bath because our shower curtain fell down. The down was shut. My sister was sitting in our bedroom. My dad comes in and i can hear him tell my sister to clean the house and such. So he opens the bathroom door, and like i said no curtain. So im exposed. And he starts telling me what needs to be done and halfway through, starts stuttering on his words. And soon after stops talking and just stares. And im just keep telling him to get out, but he doesnt. And i can see my sister look in too, but she's behind him. So i say, Jessica shut the door about 8 times. But she just walks out. And im thinking how could she do this to me?!
And 3 more times it happens. I tell my mom and she talks to him but nothing changes. It does it again 2 more times. And then more recently, im on the couch just feeling tired so i close my eyes. My dad's on the couch beside me, my moms yelling dinners done. He gets up and touches me. And i can't shake the feeling off, its like i can still feel it. It doesnt feel like he just got up and accidently brushed his hand on me. And it always comes back to me. Im cry sometimes. I did today and at least 3 times this week. I just cant deal with it.
And then like i had a "dream." The first time its happened i always had this fear that one day he would rape me. So im half asleep, half awake, and i hear in his voice really angry like, "Keep talking about stuff that gets me in trouble with your mom, and im going to rape you." Because i told my mom about him flirting with other people.
He's also looked at my older sister nude in the shower even though i told him she was in there 70 times before he even got into the bathroom. What do i do? How can i deal with this? Sorry for the length.
Im just scared. Cuz im always the first one to tell my family what someone did wrong if i know they would want to know. And they never dont do anything about it, and i feel like they dont believe me and that im crazy. I just dont want them to be mad at me.
And 3 more times it happens. I tell my mom and she talks to him but nothing changes. It does it again 2 more times. And then more recently, im on the couch just feeling tired so i close my eyes. My dad's on the couch beside me, my moms yelling dinners done. He gets up and touches me. And i can't shake the feeling off, its like i can still feel it. It doesnt feel like he just got up and accidently brushed his hand on me. And it always comes back to me. Im cry sometimes. I did today and at least 3 times this week. I just cant deal with it.
And then like i had a "dream." The first time its happened i always had this fear that one day he would rape me. So im half asleep, half awake, and i hear in his voice really angry like, "Keep talking about stuff that gets me in trouble with your mom, and im going to rape you." Because i told my mom about him flirting with other people.
He's also looked at my older sister nude in the shower even though i told him she was in there 70 times before he even got into the bathroom. What do i do? How can i deal with this? Sorry for the length.
Im just scared. Cuz im always the first one to tell my family what someone did wrong if i know they would want to know. And they never dont do anything about it, and i feel like they dont believe me and that im crazy. I just dont want them to be mad at me.