Hi I'm 18 years old. I'm a girl.
I been confused but more like obsessing and fearing
I have nothing against gays or bi!
Counselor already said i had depression and obsessive thinking might be ocd? She told me I'm straight. This happend when i entered college it completely took over my life i suddenly got this HUGE fear of turning gay and bi .My grades went down i wouldn't go outside or eat, feel like not talking, i cry everyday, be stressed. These thoughts of thinking girls were pretty made me think what if I'm gay? Also looking at women bodies made me think what if I'm gay. But never thought anything sexually. I started to look in my past i remember my very first crush was a guy in 6th grade and up my teen years. Never had a crush on a girl. I was never confused over my sexuality. Because i knew i was straight. I always fantasize about men. I even had many crushes on teachers( men) XD
Okay when i was 15 i started to watch porn and it included girl on girl. It did turn me on and i tried fantasize about it never did anything for me at all. Also when watching girl on girl i just watch it and go to sleep not fantasize at all. But when i watch either or read about guy and guy or guy and girl i would always fantasize about it. I read manga and I'm obsessed with yaoi (guyxguy) (its hot lol) and always reading straight romance i sometimes read yuri(which is girlxgirl) but i don't like it as much as yaoi and straight romances. Another reason i know I'm not bi either is because i had this friend who i found out she told me she was bi. But she said it in a way that meant like "go out" or something. I told her i wasn't interested that i was straight. It did take me by surprise but just moved on didn't confused my sexuality. I find girls pretty, but not in a sexual way or relationship. Could this be HOCD? I know 100% sure I'm not a lesbian or Bisexual. But why can't i stop obsessing!!! Also i had this other fear of going deaf I seriously believe i was going deaf. (I keep googling every thing!!) So I got all depressed scared. I found out i wasn't going deaf. But it took me months to believe i wasn't going deaf.
I been confused but more like obsessing and fearing
I have nothing against gays or bi!
Counselor already said i had depression and obsessive thinking might be ocd? She told me I'm straight. This happend when i entered college it completely took over my life i suddenly got this HUGE fear of turning gay and bi .My grades went down i wouldn't go outside or eat, feel like not talking, i cry everyday, be stressed. These thoughts of thinking girls were pretty made me think what if I'm gay? Also looking at women bodies made me think what if I'm gay. But never thought anything sexually. I started to look in my past i remember my very first crush was a guy in 6th grade and up my teen years. Never had a crush on a girl. I was never confused over my sexuality. Because i knew i was straight. I always fantasize about men. I even had many crushes on teachers( men) XD
Okay when i was 15 i started to watch porn and it included girl on girl. It did turn me on and i tried fantasize about it never did anything for me at all. Also when watching girl on girl i just watch it and go to sleep not fantasize at all. But when i watch either or read about guy and guy or guy and girl i would always fantasize about it. I read manga and I'm obsessed with yaoi (guyxguy) (its hot lol) and always reading straight romance i sometimes read yuri(which is girlxgirl) but i don't like it as much as yaoi and straight romances. Another reason i know I'm not bi either is because i had this friend who i found out she told me she was bi. But she said it in a way that meant like "go out" or something. I told her i wasn't interested that i was straight. It did take me by surprise but just moved on didn't confused my sexuality. I find girls pretty, but not in a sexual way or relationship. Could this be HOCD? I know 100% sure I'm not a lesbian or Bisexual. But why can't i stop obsessing!!! Also i had this other fear of going deaf I seriously believe i was going deaf. (I keep googling every thing!!) So I got all depressed scared. I found out i wasn't going deaf. But it took me months to believe i wasn't going deaf.