I'm a 14 year old girl and The past few weeks I've been feeling depressed. It was mild at first 'cause it was just self-esteem issues. But now its different. I've had a lot of symptoms of depression. I've been so empty and sad that I can hardly handle it.
I've even cut myself with my mom's scissors a few times and now there's 6-7 bright pink cuts on my left arm and a small gash on the back of my knee. I got so desperate one time, I searched through the house until I found a pencil in my backpack and stabbed my wrist.
Most of the time, all I want to do is sit in my room and die. I want to cry my eyes out. For some weird reason, it gives me pleasure.
Also, more symptoms I'm experiencing are sadness, emptiness, loss of interest and pleasure, irritability, anger, changes in appetite, sleep problems, restlessness, slow movement and thinking, fatigue, worthlessness and guilt, poor concentration, thoughts about death and suicide, sensitivity and bad anxiety (i.e. when i get in the car, I'm terrified I'm going to wreck), also loud and rapid speech, racing thoughts, risky behavior, impulsive behavior, overeating, muscle aches, headaches, weakness, and etc...
And the weird thing is, nothing major has occured in my life to make this happen. It's for no reason apparently. So, what I'm wondering is, what's caused me to do this?
What's wrong with me? Do I have a disorder? Is something wrong? I've read a little on depression and the symptoms and I fit in with all of them. Should I see a therapist or doctor?
I've even cut myself with my mom's scissors a few times and now there's 6-7 bright pink cuts on my left arm and a small gash on the back of my knee. I got so desperate one time, I searched through the house until I found a pencil in my backpack and stabbed my wrist.
Most of the time, all I want to do is sit in my room and die. I want to cry my eyes out. For some weird reason, it gives me pleasure.
Also, more symptoms I'm experiencing are sadness, emptiness, loss of interest and pleasure, irritability, anger, changes in appetite, sleep problems, restlessness, slow movement and thinking, fatigue, worthlessness and guilt, poor concentration, thoughts about death and suicide, sensitivity and bad anxiety (i.e. when i get in the car, I'm terrified I'm going to wreck), also loud and rapid speech, racing thoughts, risky behavior, impulsive behavior, overeating, muscle aches, headaches, weakness, and etc...
And the weird thing is, nothing major has occured in my life to make this happen. It's for no reason apparently. So, what I'm wondering is, what's caused me to do this?
What's wrong with me? Do I have a disorder? Is something wrong? I've read a little on depression and the symptoms and I fit in with all of them. Should I see a therapist or doctor?