I need guidance, I need help, I am desprate, I think I will run away from home?

Mazlomeh

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my parent's abusive behavior has reached a point to where i cant handle it anymore

they have always treated me like crap.when i was younger i would get hit for the stupidest reasons, i once lost a tooth from getting my head banged on the bathroom floor...for making noises when my dad was sleeping

when i grew older, that aspect of their punishments went away...but i was pretty much living in a prison. i have a phone i can only use to call them no friends no texting nothing, i have a car i can use to drive me to uni and work and thats it, i took my sister to walmart to get something and i got a huge problem from it

i am 18 years old, and i have a job as a pharm tech and my dad is threatening that if i dont quit he will go to my job and do whatever he can to make them fire me that or they will "force" me to quit in their "own ways" just because they dont like the fact of me having independence, they said those exact words. every single day they threaten to pull me out of uni and the only thing stopping them is the fact that they arent putting me through college at all and havent paid a dime for me to be here

i had a bf for 3 yrs behind their back they found out 6 months ago and made us break up. the pain of losing him still lives with me everyday, and now that i decided i need a place to stay and go, i found a way to finally contact him again a month or 2 ago (through a friend) and he had moved on with someone else.

my parents have always treated me like crap. there r fights everyday in my house. i dont even feel safe going home, my dad has threatened to honor kill me several times i cant live like this andnow they r taking away my job the only thing i htought i had going for me.

i dont knwo eherre to go or what to do i have 2 thousand dollars saved up and around 2 thousand dollars worth of gold with me, i have the car, and the clothes on my back.

where do i go, what do i do, i cant live like this anymore in fear i cant live my life a prisoner i cant keep hearing curse words and threats and yells everyday of my life i cant focus on anything i cant do anything i cant keep living in pain

should i run away what should i do but plz i cant get any authorities or police involved its too complicated for me to explain but i cant
 
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