i need advice. how to talk to my son and how to make the first step?

[Martina]

How do you get to tell your side of the fact's my ...How do you get to tell your side of the fact's my ...how do you get to tell your side of the fact's my son john cutts II was filled and drilled with lies about his mom. (me) His father john cutts sr. beat me with a belt for 2 hrs. cuz i walked out side bare foot . arresed for this. broke my ear drum when i was 8 mo. pragnent. i have all the documents to prove all of what i am saying. theres are facts not lies i sent over the years gifts money letters cards to my son. now understanding they were never given to him. went to court many times. for vistation was granted. but on the day of vist my son's father never showed up with my son. john cutts sr brockton mass has 9 restraing ordes agaist him for battering all his girl friends stocking charges in calaforina. his own mom took out a restraing order for i was there when this happend. punshing his mom. now has got my son convinced that I am a monster. i guess he wants to make him self look good and it is not true . so my ? is how do i talk to him . and let him see 4 himself. so he can make up his own mind about me. . my son is 18yrs old. not a child he is a man now. do's anyone have a answer. 4 i need one .