Balsamic Vinegar
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sigh....
Okay this is a really complicated situation, but the simplest way I can put it, is that my mom singled me out (i have 3 siblings and I'm the second) and totally degraded me. I'm in college and she called me saying that she missed me and wanted me to go home and visit, so I decided why not. I told her I'd come in the following weekend and suddenly she says no you can't. i don't want you coming. No one told me it was because my sister was home, and my sister bullies me so my mom didn't want the stress of dealing with that.
but my mom, instead of explaining that my sister was home, just left it as i was uninvited for no reason. and then she went on a rant about how I should go find another mother and that she doesn't owe me a home. and that she'll change the locks if i try to come back.
....i hate her for this. not because of what she said, but because of how it makes me feel..and I can't seem to get over it....I just feel unloved.
please, anyone, how can i feel not sad anymore. i just want to get that voice of hers out of my head so i can live my own life. please any advice to stop hearing her echo those hurtful words!!
**if I do successfully separate myself from her, and realize than I'm not the cause of her outbursts, do you think that the sadness will eventually go away?**
Okay this is a really complicated situation, but the simplest way I can put it, is that my mom singled me out (i have 3 siblings and I'm the second) and totally degraded me. I'm in college and she called me saying that she missed me and wanted me to go home and visit, so I decided why not. I told her I'd come in the following weekend and suddenly she says no you can't. i don't want you coming. No one told me it was because my sister was home, and my sister bullies me so my mom didn't want the stress of dealing with that.
but my mom, instead of explaining that my sister was home, just left it as i was uninvited for no reason. and then she went on a rant about how I should go find another mother and that she doesn't owe me a home. and that she'll change the locks if i try to come back.
....i hate her for this. not because of what she said, but because of how it makes me feel..and I can't seem to get over it....I just feel unloved.
please, anyone, how can i feel not sad anymore. i just want to get that voice of hers out of my head so i can live my own life. please any advice to stop hearing her echo those hurtful words!!
**if I do successfully separate myself from her, and realize than I'm not the cause of her outbursts, do you think that the sadness will eventually go away?**