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i have regular checkups with my dr , around once a month cos of an injury to my right hand
i really really like and am attracted to him - he is married
i know its wrong but sorry thats the way i feel but i have not acted on it or told him how I feel
during consultations he has to check my hands and I usually feel uncomfortable by this cos i dont know if hes feeling me up - theres alot of stroking
usually doctors are quite rough and hes really very gentle, although he never used to be in the beginning
there was this one occassion where i got a chill down my spine when he touched me and he saw it and got aroused
since then i have been really confused how to act around him cos i like him but i dont want to lead him on cos hes my dr and married, but i still like him so much and am so upset
last time when i saw him and he asked to see my hands i slammed them down on the table - i dont know why but as a defense mechanism i guess
he looked really angry and i feel so bad for being so rude and aggressive and hostile
i have an appt with him again this week - i dont know how to act,
should i apologise directly about my behaviour or just say something like 'ive been suffering really bad mood swings and have been slamming into things for no reason other than anger management issues'
i dont want to humiliate him which is what i did and i want to let him know how sorry i am because i have been really distraught ever since. im counting the days till my next appt so i can make ammends
i really really like and am attracted to him - he is married
i know its wrong but sorry thats the way i feel but i have not acted on it or told him how I feel
during consultations he has to check my hands and I usually feel uncomfortable by this cos i dont know if hes feeling me up - theres alot of stroking
usually doctors are quite rough and hes really very gentle, although he never used to be in the beginning
there was this one occassion where i got a chill down my spine when he touched me and he saw it and got aroused
since then i have been really confused how to act around him cos i like him but i dont want to lead him on cos hes my dr and married, but i still like him so much and am so upset
last time when i saw him and he asked to see my hands i slammed them down on the table - i dont know why but as a defense mechanism i guess
he looked really angry and i feel so bad for being so rude and aggressive and hostile
i have an appt with him again this week - i dont know how to act,
should i apologise directly about my behaviour or just say something like 'ive been suffering really bad mood swings and have been slamming into things for no reason other than anger management issues'
i dont want to humiliate him which is what i did and i want to let him know how sorry i am because i have been really distraught ever since. im counting the days till my next appt so i can make ammends