I know Im whining but I NEED help!?

[Dylan]

I'm a 18 year old male. Last week I quit my first job which was at a kennel. I quit because I have anxiety and stress when it got busy around the holidays (it is a seasonal job). So now I am jobless, I have $420 to my name and I'm have a new addiction. That addiction is Pokemon cards! I bought my first pack in a long time today and it made me feel happy. Which is something I haven't felt in awhile. My best friend collects them aswell and he got me back into them. I used to love Pokemon as a kid and I think that is why it is so addicting. So I spent $50 today on cards! I believe I suffer from depression and anxiety. I'm positive I do. So right now I just need some help, or suggestions on what I should be doing!? I feel so lost and sad all the time. I'm at my Grandparents house most of the time or my only friends house (I only have 1 friend). I need a job very very badly, and I will soon be broke if thise Poke card addiction keeps up. I'm just so messed up. Should I get some medication for anxiety and depression? I just can't think straight! I don't even go to college but I don't know what I'd be interested in, plus I always hated school, especially high school. I have bad memories there. Don't tell anyone (lol) but I sometimes think of suicide and how it would be better if I was dead. Being dead would be like before you were born. A lot of nothingness. It would be better than suffering. What job should someone like myself get? I am a bit shy and especially awkward to people. I don't want a demeaning job like being a bus boy or a fast food worker...