ok so last summer at my maine house with my mom was terrible. my moms birthday is july 4th (shes so lucky!) and my stepdad wasnt supposed to come but he did at 1:00 in the morning of my moms birthday. i was really excited to see him. after we all went to bed i woke up to the sound of thumping (i am 11 and i sleep with my door open and you can see my moms bedroom from my room she sleeps with her door closed) and moaning. i know its normal to have sex, but now? when my mom KNOWS i can hear her! we even talk sumtimes from our bedroom doors. i ran and got up and they stopped. i ran back to my room shut the door quietly so they wouldnt hear. i started to cry and was about to sob but i stopped my tears so no one would come into my room. i got up went to the bathroom and looked at my eye (it was irratating me) and i had a stye (or however u spell it). i then went to my room and waited still holding in tears. then they got up and i heard the door open. they were probably smoking. so i started to cry my eyes out. it was terrible. after a while my mom came in my room to see if i wanted breakfast. she saw i had been crying. she asked why i was crying and i lied and said my eye hurt. she checked it out and said ok. she got me some stuff for it and i was fine. (she thought it was pink eye. ha!) i was really depressed and all i did was cry that day. i tried to read, which ussually calms me down, but it didnt work. i tried to read a page but the sound of them just kept poping in my mind. i sobbed for hours straight. since it was my moms birthday i felt bad, but at the same time i just about wanted to kill her. i sat in bed all day crying and i had an exscuse cause of my the next day i woke up still sad, and went down stairs for breakfast. i went over to the guest bedroom window (which the usually slept in) and looked through it. i saw my mom with her dress up to her stomac and my step dads face in her *girl spot*. i was so mad i grabbed a drink out of the fridge and ran up the stairs as fast as i could. later that day my mom noticed that i was depressed and confronted me. she asked me why i was so sad and she sad i should be happy, it was summer my time off i should hang with my friends. i told her what i saw and what i heard and started to cry. she just told me i should get over they were gonna do it and i should care. she didnt say it calm either. i mean i get that she was probably embarrased but she could have been more conciderate. im going back there this summer and im scared. i know i should be over it but that completely ruined my summer. also my step dad had something bad happen to him. my mom felt bad for him and me so she started forcing me to go to my friends houses. they even noticed i was sad. im scared she is going to do this to me again. they broke up for a long time and she said he wasnt coming with us. but now they got back together and he is coming. i feel uncomfertable around him and when he calls me pretty or when he hugs me i freak out and run to my room and cry. i dont know why i feel like that i just freak out. and dont suggest therapists because i already tried that. im scared to go there this summer. we r even moving to maine so im REALLY scared. my mom would never let me move to my dad where i have my nice lovable step mom and 3 week old baby brother. i dont know what to do. i luv my step dads son and so thats an up and i was excited that he was comeing with me but i just relized the whole sex this. i need to figure something out or confront my mom.
plz no nasty comments or mean ones or ones calling me and idiot
trust me
already been there
P.S. remeber im 11 not 17 or 15 or anything older.
plz no nasty comments or mean ones or ones calling me and idiot
trust me
already been there
P.S. remeber im 11 not 17 or 15 or anything older.