dr. iron chin
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I'm 17 and I get these mood swings really bad. Some times I'll be on top of the world, and then when I see something like my parents in a bad mood, or a good looking girl that I know won't even give me the time of day, or thinking about the things that I used to really enjoy and had to give up because I got lazy or unmotivated or I couldn't get past a mental aspect of it, I get into an absolutely terrible mood. I start contemplating suicide, or wondering what life would be like without me, or wondering how people would react if I died suddenly from something like cancer or a car crash. I can't picture myself growing old and having grandkids, I get the feeling like I'm probably going to die young. I've thought about suicide before but never tried anything, I've never even cut myself. I don't drink a lot, and I don't do drugs. I've never had a real girlfriend, but there is a girl I work with that I like a lot. I kind of asked her if she wanted to be my girl friend last summer but she said no. She was nice about it and everything, and we've hung out a few times since, and she is still really nice, but I'm wondering if that could be part of the reason I get depressed like this? Thanks for reading all this and please help. Every time I get like this I really hurt and I need help.