I have some of friend drama?

[Courtney]

I have this “friend.” We’ve been friends for six years now, six years of laughter and tears. The tears all come from me. He treats me like the dirt under his shoes. More then usual lately. Out of nowhere he’s been treating me like I’m a useless follower. I’ve never been mean to him. I’ve always loved him and treated him fairly. He’s gay. Before he came out of the closet, everyone accused him of being gay. I was his body guard, I told people off for him, I comforted his sorry ass when he was sad. I’ve always been there for him. I’ve stuck up for him when I knew he was being an asshole to my other friends. Now I’m being picked on by him. He made me cry my eyes out tonight, he said that I’m the reason my step-dad drinks, he said I’m the reason my mom has to work two jobs. Because I’m a failure. I get better grades then him, (all A’s), I go to school everyday, I take care of my brother. He does nothing yet when I defend myself he says, “Don’t put all YOUR failures onto me.” I now have three options, forgive him, hold my head up high and act like’s nothing to me, or I can ruin his life. I so want too. I want to destroy him, I want him to suffer like I did. I know it sounds so stupid, what should I do?