I almost feel guilty complaining, because I feel like I have so much going for me, yet I can't find it in myself to be happy about it. But I feel miserable, so I'll write it out anyway. I am a full time grad student, 23, turning 24 soon; an English major, wanting to teach the same subject. I also work full time, so my schedule is hectic and tiring as it is, but I just so tired most the time that I physically don't want to get up and get things done. I'm constantly frustrated, because the work load I have is very rigorous and really gets to me, and I'm in a competitive program. My job requires a lot of thought and effort too, it's research, editing, tutoring, etc. I have friends and family to turn to, but it doesn't help; they give kind words, which I appreciate, but it still doesn't help me with my long term fatigue/depression/overall negativity that I am feeling.
I also constantly feel angry because I'm frustrated at not having a boyfriend. Sounds bad, I know, but every other girl in my major has someone to give her that constant support and affection. It sucks, because I have everything I wanted school wise, and my own place, which I wanted to, but I still am unable to enjoy it. I can't do well, even though I am very smart in the field, my tiredness prevents me from being on time, getting things done, and exhibiting the overall determination which I have, but have no ability to show. This just feels like a waste of my intelligence and talent, since my professors just think I'm a slacker. I don't know what to do anymore, my grades are crumbling, my energy is lagging, my depression and health are getting worse.
Any advice? Anything would help at this point. Thanks!
I also constantly feel angry because I'm frustrated at not having a boyfriend. Sounds bad, I know, but every other girl in my major has someone to give her that constant support and affection. It sucks, because I have everything I wanted school wise, and my own place, which I wanted to, but I still am unable to enjoy it. I can't do well, even though I am very smart in the field, my tiredness prevents me from being on time, getting things done, and exhibiting the overall determination which I have, but have no ability to show. This just feels like a waste of my intelligence and talent, since my professors just think I'm a slacker. I don't know what to do anymore, my grades are crumbling, my energy is lagging, my depression and health are getting worse.
Any advice? Anything would help at this point. Thanks!