I have mood swings all day?

[John]

Hey, I'm 14 and I've been having mood swings a lot lately. Sometimes up to 6 times a day. I can be the nicest person but on the flick of a switch I suddenly hate everyone and want to die. And the weird thing is, is when I am depressed, I kind of like it. I don't feel sorry for myself, I just feed on my sadness. I don't really know how to explain it. I drown the world out and think crazy thoughts. Well, they're not crazy to me. It's deep stuff like this is all a dream and none of you are real and I need to find a way to wake up before I die, or maybe the government controls everything we do and that there's more to life than they want us to know. I dwell on this thoughts and over-contemplate everything and think up endless possibilities. Sometimes I just want to go out in the jungle and seclude myself from everyone. When I'm in this mood I think of how stupid everyone is and how they lead the same life day after day, when there's so much more out there than Facebook and Jersey Shore. I hate it when people are closed-minded. I am kind of an outsider at school, but I have a few okay friends but they still don't understand me. No one really understands me. And NO, I am not emo to all you trolls. I don't know if this means anything but a lot of times in this mood, I envision myself as characters in movies and songs. So do you think that I have a mental disorder or something? Thank you.