I have been fighting the urge to medicate, but don't think I can take anymore..

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Hey all.

I'm now 27, and have been suffering anxiety problems since I was a little boy. Mainly due to very stressful situations I was exposed to as a child, on up to being an adult. I'm a single father with 2 young boys, I have no family what so ever, and no other real mental/physical/emotional/financial help.

At about 24ish, my anxiety started to get out of control. Mainly situational, and there were MANY triggers with things/people that surrounded me in my life. But it's now to the point where I'm having minor anxiety attacks almost EVERY night. I find reasons not to go to sleep, even when I'm tired. My memory is COMPLETELY shot because my brain will no slow down enough to relax, I'm growing gray hair like crazy(nobody else in my family is gray until their late 50's), I'm starting to shake!, etc etc...It's getting ridiculous. As a young kid I was known for having a great memory. Now I forget things that were told to me 20 seconRAB ago. I'm not so sure if it's bad memory, or the fact my mind is so busy I'm not always listening.

All these things anxiety is beginning to do to me are crazy. I'm not out of shape, I dont smoke, dont drink, and don't do anything else unhealthy to myself. I'm not overweight. But I'm falling apart due to anxiety, and I've fought the urge as long as I can to stay out of the vicious cycle that meRAB put you on.

Is it time for me to give up the good fight and try something? I can take this anymore. I just want some peace. I'm tired of feeling nothing but pure chaos in my braind and in my heart ALL the time. I just want peace :(

Thanks for reading. Input is appreciated.
 
I think you should definitely try something new, eg see a psychologist.

The good thing about anxiety is it responRAB very well to both medication and therapy. I was in your position, gettin panic attacks at night and finding reasons to not go to bed. It gets alot easier when you have someone to talk to and some medication to simply take the edge off, I've been on an anxialitic for about a year now and I get a panic attack like ever few months, and it rarely lasts more than a min or two.

Definitely talk to someone, even your GP for some direction.
 
i so understand how you feel- my anxiety/panic started when my father died suddenly in 2003 and i still suffer from both today and it is becoming increasingly worse by the day- i too have talked myself out of medication but finally made an appointment with my doctor next week- i cannot take it anymore- the panic rules my mornings- afternoons - evenings and nights- all i think about is when is the next one coming and they are so overwhelming and so frightening and so out of control - they can happen anywhere too which is the worst- at home or the grocery store or church or driving- i can't breathe- i'm shaking- my heart is pounding i just know i'm dying- every single day i tell myself i need to call 911!! how crazy is that? you just don't tell youself every single day of your life you need to call 911- i just hate all of it so much and i am ready to take anything my doctor prescribes- i hope you will find something that works for you because you need to be strong for your children- never give up!
 
Weigh the pros and cons. Is your anxiety bad enough that you're willing to go through the side effects of medication to help your anxiety get better?
 
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