Before my boyfriend and I started dating, he basically was obsessed with her, and still talks about her every once in a while just as everyone does about their celebrity crush. Not too long ago, she used to live beside him, 15 minutes away from where he lived and he always used to talk about how he could have had a chance with her and it makes me feel as if I'm not good enough. I'm obsessed with watching all her videos for 'thinspo' and cry every time I speak to him, knowing I'll never look like what he fantasizes about. He has a calendar of her with a ton of half naked photos of her, and it just makes me feel even worst about myself making me want to look like her.
I've turned bulimic recently trying to get her body, and I'm now considering all types of plastic surgery. It sounds silly, but I can't help it. These are my problems, not his, how can I fix this ? I don't want to tell him this.. He's an amazing boyfriend.
This is her:
http://www.cutecherylcole.com/userfiles/2010/1/27/images/Busy%20Cheryl%20Cole.jpg
I've turned bulimic recently trying to get her body, and I'm now considering all types of plastic surgery. It sounds silly, but I can't help it. These are my problems, not his, how can I fix this ? I don't want to tell him this.. He's an amazing boyfriend.
This is her:
http://www.cutecherylcole.com/userfiles/2010/1/27/images/Busy%20Cheryl%20Cole.jpg