Annie Fornow
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Okay, so i became really good friends with this girl, Maria, and really valued her friendship. She became my best friend. She eventually told me she was gay. I was fine with that. I still wanted to be friends. And didn't think I liked her like that. But then, I told her about how I used to think I was gay when I was younger and she thought that I liked her. This thought was quite new to me, and scared me. Well, as time went on we grew apart. I just recently found out that her, and my other best friend, Sarah, were dating for months and keeping it from me. I was very hurt that they didn't tell me. All I wanted was their friendship, and felt alone during the relationship because they were so obsessed with each other. They have now broken up, but we are all still sort of friends. But, now I've come to realize that I do/did have a crush on Maria. I even admitted it to her when she brought it up recently. Idk if she's ever liked me or not. all the time when they were dating I felt like she had abandoned me, as a friend, and she somewhat did, but now, we are still friends, just not that much, but i think about her a lot!! Like she's on my mind, too much! I hang out with Sarah all the time, and we always talk about Maria. I'm hurt by Maria for leaving me as a friend, but I also don't want to have anything sexually with her because I couldn't do that to Sarah and I'm not sure if I believe it's right or not. But, part of me does want it!! But, I just don't know how to get her, the hurt about our lost friendship, the situation, my feelings for her.... out of my head?! I'm very hurt a lot of the time, and now I like her, but I just wanna be friends, but i'm tired of dealing with it all! And I just don't know how I should handle the whole situation!!!??? Advice??