I hate the world today.

Because everyone deals with it a different way?

You will too learn, you need to pick yourself up and be in the frame of mind everything will be okay.

One day you will realise nothing will be accomplished by the upset you are carrying. I am not saying, don't be upset, you have all the time you want, but one day you will do it.
 
there are hard days, and easy days. Its been 130 days for me. I throw fits, I cry, I sleep shitty...

and some days are easier. there are phone calls. make boxes to send...keeping busy is the easiest way. Dwelling on it makes it worse.

you can either spend alot of time and energy being miserable, or you can put that energy into something more positive.

but you are still allowed days to throw fits and cry and be miserable...
 
Thanks, Lyn.

I've been trying to stay productive. I swear, my house has never been this clean before. I've been reading a lot and spending a lot of time exercising. I try to write him every day, and I've been working on several packages to send, but it's just hard. I get to where I can't focus on anything because I just can't make my brain work through all of this.

It's really kind of comforting to know that not all girls deal with this by acting like a Prozac monster.
 
;923710']You know what you can do? Try getting a tape recorder and recording your voice for him. Send him a recorder and some blank tapes. Trust me- when I was in the war, me and my first wife (may she rot in hell) did this... and it was comforting to hear her voice over and over in my earphones as I went to sleep.

Try making things for him... hemp jewelry, something... whatever. It will keep you occupied and you'll be motivated to do it for him.
 
honestly in a month or so your brain will get over the initial shock of omg he isnt here. I had a really bad crying jag about a week after D deployed in an olive garden because I went to have something boxed up to take home to him, and my friends had to remind me he wasnt there...I think I scarred our waitress.

The best thing to do is find some girls on post who ARENT the damn happy brigade. Find some sarcastic bitches you can joke around with and do something weekly...we used to have sushi parties and craft parties and stuff. I would reccomend staying away from the girls who've been through a deployment or two because they forget how hard it is at first and can be pretty cold about it.

also I know a few ways to sneak porn over for him if you want.
 
That's a really good idea, Hos. I'll keep that in mind.

All of the girls I've talked to have been super nice, really. Just in an over the top, sugary, and kind of fake way. And that they're very self centered. The conversations always seem to follow the lines of, "That's nice. My boyfriend..." Which I don't really mind. I like being a genuine listening ear.

But dammit, it's nice to get that in return sometimes!

Well, okay. There was one girl told me I was being immature and completely overreacting. But that just pissed me off further.
 
;923719']Send him Copenhagen.

I know, he probably doesn't dip... but if he's deployed (is he?), then in the middle east he can get $10 a can from the guys who dip.
 
its hard to find a good friend group if you arent one of those sugary self centered bimbos....who btw are the ones who cheat.

which reminds me a few rules that are unspoken but should be.

Dont go to nightclubs or bars dressed like a ho.
If you and chick friends have a girls night out, and one of them starts acting ho-y....leave.
Dont associate with ho's. Their reputation will stick to you.


Seriously, Ive dropped friends who send divorce papers to their husbands when they deploy. It disturbs me that these girls who's men deployed the same time....I hear "I miss him so much" and then a few months later "hes an asshole...he was always mean to me" and then a few weeks later "I have a new boyfriend and he treats me SO good"

Avoid those girls.
 
Yeah, see, I'm kind of in a good position there. I don't associate with people in general, let alone low-life losers who would do shit like that. It's probably not healthy. But really, I have a tight-knit group of close friends that I don't stray too far out of.
 
;923744']Lyn, you kick ass and you deserve a medal...

Or at least a burger and a beer.

Listen to her, Jesse... the little tramps are everywhere.
 
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