I had sex with my mate and now Im worried things are ruined?

devs91

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I have known this guy for 25 odd years and we talk on email everyday. Its not just me and him, there is 4 girls and him. He and I have a lot of funny banter on emails, we totally take the piss out of each other and the banter goes on for ages! He says he'd rather masterbate with a grater and I say Id rather shove a pineapple up my chooch! haha... good times... We can get quite insulting but its really funny and we both love it. One nite we were out and I ended up bumping into him randomly at a clu and we hung out all nite and ditched the people we were with. He was very drunk and I wasnt and he kept saying "can we go back to your place after" and I was none the wiser, I was like yup thats cool... We chatted all nite and then at one stage he was standing next to me and he said "check your phone" so I did and he sent me a msg saying "Serious Question. Can I fk you tonite? I flipped!!! I was like OMG!! WHAT!! NO!!!! WTF!!! and he said... 'But you said just earlier... We would be good together" I didnt actually say this... I told him I thought him and another person would be good togevs! Awkward!! So I was like "Oh you dont mean that!! You're just drunk!! and I hugged him and immediately changed the subject... but he looked upset and was a bit quiet after that...
This was at the end of the nite and I didnt want the nite to end on an awkward note so I let him come back to my house as planned... We watched movies and then started to drift off to sleep and he started cuddling me and trying to make out with me... I pulled back the first time and said it was too weird... but then I changed my mind and I allowed the kiss but firmly said there would be no sex as I didnt think of him like that and it was weird!!!! So he accepted that and so we just cuddled and had a few smooches.
The next day he sends me a text ... Hey c*nt (yes i know, he calls me a c*nt haha) Thanks for not letting anything happen last nite, Would have made it weird. Sorry about that ;-l So I said no worries and left it at that... Emails on monday were fine... none of the email crew knew about it so we just acted normal. The wierd things happened, he rang me randomly a couple of weeks later on a weekend and I answered saying... What do you want??? And he said... I want you baby... and I was like WHAT?? Then he said he called the wrong person and was meant to call someone else who had the same name and me!? Pfft!! Few weeks later, I get rip roaring drunk, text him to come over... he was over in 20 mins and he was sober and we ended up having sex.I dont remember anything!! This freaks me out alot... what if I passed out halfway thru?
Next day early in the morning I was soooo hungover and he sends me a text saying. Hey f*ckface, how you feeling? You score yourself a hangover or what? So I said... Yep, I feel like ratsh*t... and he goes... haha good! cuz I think I pulled a muscle and its not exactly in a spot I can stretch either!! ...WTF!!?
Monday again at work... emails normal he was completely fine with me nothing changed... However I was freaking out, purely cuz I was sooo drunk and Im worried it wasnt good..If the sex was awesome and we were both either semi drunk/sober and we remember it... I would just leave it as a one time thing and never mention it again. So I decided that we had to do it again!! But thought I would leave that up to him... Next weekend... I get drunk again!! I sent him a message but this time it was on a SUnday nite at midnite...I know right!! idiot!! Next day I felt like such a fool...and regretted it sooo much, I dont remember what I said to him, I deleted the messages...
I read his messages and he just basically said in them that he was sleeping and he had work tmw and that I was a weirdo haha...but I also sent him a facebook message saying ... we need to do it again!! I apologised the next day and he laughed saying that my messages made no sense and that I was a nut case! He made me feel slightly better but now he isnt responding to my comments in the group emails... NO banter :( nothing... Have I ruined things? I thought he liked me?
 
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