I guess it begins.

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Well, a little background I guess..I am 19, have been addicted to various pain killers since I was 14. IT all started with one simple surgery. 2 vicodins for the first time and I always wanted more. Lately I have been having lots of health problems, I broke my back in a few places, needed surgery. Pills were SO easy to get with a simple phone call. Untill yesterday..when my doctor cut me off. After I hung up the phone..I just stood there..didn't move fore 10 minutes. Felt cold and alone without my stupid pills. So last night started the first of the withdrawls for me. I woke up today in a sweat after just a few hours of sleep. Thinking I had to get more, I called some doctors. And with no luck I knew it would be anther day and another night. So I decided since I am going to have 2 of the worse nights out of the way..I just want to stay away for ever. I have never felt so depressed, cold, and alone :( No one around me knows my secret. Maybe 1 person, but he thinks it is just a once and awhile thing for me. so far alls my family knows is I am sick right now. telling them its the flu. I can always get Tramadol. NO matter what really, my doctor will call that in for chronic back pain. So I might get some of that filled and use it for the withdrawls. maybe it will be just enough to, just tickle the opiate receptors..and help me sleep. I guess I will see where this all goes. I know I want to quit, I am tired of spending every day trying to find some pills. I am tired of wasting EVERY DAY of my life.
 
ahh thank god for the tramadol. Very minor aches. and those are the ONLY WD symptoms I have left. I feel like I just took my usual 40mg OC..but without the "high" part of it. I have been working on my Xbox ( I mod them) and feel great. Should be able to quit no problem now.
 
Hey there ShadowFalls - Glad to see that you have the right attitude to get off of the pain pills. It's really a dead end street. Withdrawals are the hard part and yes, they will last for a for up to 10 days. Your pain will be amplified, you'll feel depressed and sleep? What's that? I didn't sleep during my whole withdrawal phase. The best part is that they all go away and you will feel like a new person. You'll look back at you life for the last couple of years and say, "What a waste!" Move forward and you have a whole new life in front of you. Keep us informed how you are doing and if you have any questions.
 
I have taken tramadol for 2 years prior to this(12 pills per day, as prescribed). I weaned myself off with no desire to use them for "fun" again. Still don't use them as they don't get me high at all. But do work good for WD symptoms I guess. honestly I just decided tonight to refuse pain medication again. I don't even want to risk it. I think 2-3 days of horrible tooth pain is better than 10-20 days of more WD symptoms. Or tell him to call in darvocet. That is a weak enough pain killer I shouldn't get too buzzed off of it to REALLY crave more opiates. As long as I keep on the prescribed dose. I guess I will wait and see what monday brings. Tonight I went out with frienRAB and actually had a good time for the first time in years. I had more fun sober than I would on pills. As you are more awake and more willing to go do things. I was craving really really bad about 2:00 today. Luckily I had NOTHING in the house (got rid of EVERYTHING) so I couldn't do anything about it. Started playing xbox with some frienRAB online and forgot all about the craving. Haven't had one since. Going to try and get some sleep now, as my 11 week old boxer puppy likes to wake me up at 5:30 am for a little play session :dizzy:
 
The best thing to do when you get the cravings is to stay busy (like you did). Sitting around thinking about it will only make it worse. Find something to do to get your mind off of it. Good Job!
 
Well I just got back from the dentist. Had about 2 hours of rootcanaling fun done. When it was all done the dentist asked me if I wanted him to call in something for the pain..And for the first time in 5 years I said no. :D I felt so good walking out of that office. Better than a quick high on some pills for sure.
 
You do alot of thinking while you are laying in bed not sleeping. I realized I really do need the pills for the broken back and the 3 surgeries I have had on it. Puts me in alot of daily pain. But I didn't need to abuse them by taking 4-6X the prescribed dose. Thats where I went wrong. But honestly the tramadol helps my back quite a bit. And I took tramadol for 2 years straight and quit with no withdrawl. oh well, day 3 with no narcotic pain killers atleast. Still REALLY craving. But I feel good about beating this one. I had an ungodly painful toothache from the dental work last night. But it is gone this morning. So I am glad I turned the dentist down. Also woke up in a sweat again and it is 20 degrees and snowing here haha.
 
Congratulations and good luck. The bad news is that you will feel like crap for a few days. The good news is you will get through it and feel better. You may even find your pain is better once you are drug-free.

There are many things you can do for back pain that are non-chemical. Yoga is wonderful. You will want to make sure the yoga instructor is knowledgeable about back issues since it will both help and hurt if you are not careful. Physiotherapy can help too.

Heal well.
 
Hello and welcome!

First and foremost.... CONGRATS! You should be so proud of yourself for turning down those meRAB from the dentist! You have so much life ahead of you that it is so cool that you have decided to quit now!

This will be a hard struggle but you are young and strong and we will help you every step of the way. Addiction is a nasty thing. I struggle every day with mine. After the "drug haze" as I call it clears, you will be able to better handle things cravings and temptation better. There will still be hard days which if you read my thread from yesterday you will see but with the support of this board, you will get thru them.

I will be praying for you and please keep us posted. When in doubt, POST IT OUT! I stole that from someone on here.. Hope you don't mind if you are still out there old friend.

Blessings!
 
I just picked up 60 50mg tramadols...I will just use them for the withdrawl at night to sleep. I took 3 of them a bit ago because I swear to god I got hit by a semi somewhere during the day. My back pain had ben magnified by a thousand it feels like. :eek:
 
I am SO jealous! We have 3 boxers and I have been trying to talk my hubby into a puppy!
 
uhh, got a little problem. I guess I have to go to the dentist on monday to have some dental surgery done. Now obviously any tooth surgery hurts like hell. and I know they will prescribe pain medicine after this, and I know I will need it. I haven't needed any tramadol the past 2 days so I am basically 100% clean from anything other than herbal supplements..So now I don't know what to do. Tell my mom to hold on to them and give me the correct dose so I can't go overboard? and when the pain is gone try my hardest to not take anymore? (yeah right). I don't know what to do about this one..
 
Yesterday morning I couldn't take it anymore. He had to call something in for me. So he called in 10 vicodin 7.5-750. I kept them with me in my room. And after 24 hours of having them I still have 9 left! Normally they would be gone. But I just needed one right away yesterday and the pain has been tolerable since. Except the pain woke me up this morning and is still pretty strong. So I might take one-two more this morning.. But I am being very careful with them this time.
 
That sounRAB like a good plan to have your mom hold on to the pills and just give them to you as prescribed. Also, be careful with the Tramadol, it can be a killer to withdrawl from, worse than OC even. Take care,

KEW
 
There you go!! You have the right attitude now and I'm glad to hear that you only took what you needed. You should be proud of yourself. That is a major accomplishment and shows how strong your determination is to beat this demon.

When the pain is gone you will have the decision to flush the pills to get rid of them or keep them and be tempted. For me... I kept my pills and put them in front of me so I could show that I was tougher and more determined than the little oxy demons in my head. I stared at them everyday and fought my way through my cravings and temptations and I won. Not everyone can do that - it was something that I had to do to prove it to myself.

I'm glad to hear this news from you.
 
Sorry about the picture..Shoulda read the rules. my fault.

Anyways. I said no pain medicine..he looked at me kind of funny...Well 4-5 hour after I left the dentist and the nurabing medications wore off and the effects from whatever they game me there for sedation and I was in extreme pain. the dentist was closed so nothing I can do about it. Right now I really want to take pliers and start ripping teeth out! So..Tomorrow might be my last day of sobriety :( I guess we will see what happens. Obviously there will be no sleep tonight.
 
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