Fred Choran
New member
im 19 (male) and ive always considered myself straight, ive had several crushes on girls, most of my friends are other guys, i find the female body extremely attractive, i love girls laughs, im always turning my head to check girls out, im not feminine in anyway (though i am 135 lbs and 5 ft 9) but heres the thing i like to masturbate to gay fantasies, but it never made me think i was gay until someone over yahoo answers said that i must accept it (i let other influence me soooooooo easily) and since then ive just freaked out about it (ive been freaking out for months) but when im not stressed and not panicing about it i can masturbate to girl fantasies no problem and i find that when i masturbate to girl fantasies it feels like a deeper conection (if that even makes sense) and i feel good afterwards as where i do it with gay fantasies i feel paranoid and stressed, sometimes i think that the only reason i cant get myself going to straight thoughts sometimes its because im almost convincing myself that all of a sudden dont like girls anymore (i jump to the worst conclusion everytime) i have nothing against gays i just know that deep down i am not, i dont want to give up on girls because i love the feeling of a female that actually cares about you, i find no romance with guys and ive never felt attracted to a guy in real life, but just last week i was masturbating to girl fantasies and ejaculating no problem, and now this week i cant seem to (last week i was not as depressed as this week), am i just stressing myself out, o and my ex girlfriend took my virginity and then said she cheated on me 4 times and never cared about me so this could be adding to it