- we only split up a few weeks ago we both want different things -
I said he should come church with me but that was about it really cause i know how hard it would be for me if we carried on seeing each other... I was fine an dandy until he text me yesterday an it was just some gay text asking how i am, as a result it got me thinking about him all day yesterday an i guess ill be thinking about him all day today seen as im thinkin bout him right now...
I love him so so so very deeply, he's my first love, we split cause i took an abstinence vow an he didn't wanna do that so what reason has he got to text me I'm trying really hard to right my wrongs an change but when i think about him i think about him I backslide a bit an think about all the things that made me slip up
I love him like a brother but i just hate hate hate talking to him (i know thats horrible an selfish..)
shall i tell him? i really wanna avoid this again, or shall i just change my number so it's like i lost my phone (therefore lost his number to tell him) ?? i dont really know what to do about this
p.s we split up one time before an i thought about him 24/7 stopped doing my work was just in bed all the time so i'm talking from previous experience.. i dont want that again it completely tore me apart
I said he should come church with me but that was about it really cause i know how hard it would be for me if we carried on seeing each other... I was fine an dandy until he text me yesterday an it was just some gay text asking how i am, as a result it got me thinking about him all day yesterday an i guess ill be thinking about him all day today seen as im thinkin bout him right now...
I love him so so so very deeply, he's my first love, we split cause i took an abstinence vow an he didn't wanna do that so what reason has he got to text me I'm trying really hard to right my wrongs an change but when i think about him i think about him I backslide a bit an think about all the things that made me slip up
I love him like a brother but i just hate hate hate talking to him (i know thats horrible an selfish..)
shall i tell him? i really wanna avoid this again, or shall i just change my number so it's like i lost my phone (therefore lost his number to tell him) ?? i dont really know what to do about this
p.s we split up one time before an i thought about him 24/7 stopped doing my work was just in bed all the time so i'm talking from previous experience.. i dont want that again it completely tore me apart