i am active in an extra curricular sport and we just got awards for the end of the season. everyone got some kind of consolation award (the interim coach called them ‘paper plate awards’), some of them silly/ humorous, but mine was ‘most awkwardly friendly’. i started giving out awards to my fellow team mates, and as i said ‘i didn’t interpret paper plates as literally as everyone else did’ since i made actual awards, some complete stranger shouted, ‘most awkward!’ and everyone laughed before/ after this person said that. not to mention the coach (who i thought i would like at first but who turned out to be a two faced b*tch) of course chose all her favorite athletes, even though they were easily the least productive/ least dedicated and most arrogant/ most spoiled people on the team who i usually pick up after.
these are the kids i pick up after because for every practice we have (today was no exception), i am usually one of the only kids setting up and putting things away before and after practice, and literally get not an ounce of appreciation. i have been involved in this activity for several years as well, and am one of the only still original participants there, but people still overlook me/ don’t acknowledge me/ label me as ’socially awkward’ and talk about me behind my back, and i’ve never received an actual award for something until today when i got a consolation prize for ‘awkwardly friendly’. Yes, it is the only of any awards i’ve received in this program, and it’s just a consolation.
in fact, one of the head coaches openly thanks the kids next to me putting things away, and yet somehow completely ignores me, no matter what i do. even when i’m just there, she ignores me. i can feel in the air when i get there that there is a unspoken dislike toward me.
not to mention this organization that runs the program is in need of funding, and i have been involved in several fundraising events with the organization, and have asked for my parents to donate/ contribute to them as a christmas present and later as a birthday present. i even went out of my way to ask my school for $1,000 to fund it. still, not a word of acknowledgment/ appreciation.
in fact, one of the girls who got an ‘official’ award told me after our practice today to ‘do something’, as she was sitting on the side doing nothing and watching me put things away. i know that most of these kids talk to me behind my back also and give me not respect (of course, since i’m ‘most awkwardly friendly’ to them), but sometimes i get overt disrespect like this.
usually i can take a joke, but this has pushed me into the realm of distrust and suspicion. as an isolated incident, the ‘most awkwardly friendly’ award doesn’t seem much, but put together over multiple seasons (and years) of this, it doesn’t seem isolated to me. it really pisses me off, especially because people aren’t like this to me at school/ other places in life. why only at this activity and nowhere else? why me?
these are the kids i pick up after because for every practice we have (today was no exception), i am usually one of the only kids setting up and putting things away before and after practice, and literally get not an ounce of appreciation. i have been involved in this activity for several years as well, and am one of the only still original participants there, but people still overlook me/ don’t acknowledge me/ label me as ’socially awkward’ and talk about me behind my back, and i’ve never received an actual award for something until today when i got a consolation prize for ‘awkwardly friendly’. Yes, it is the only of any awards i’ve received in this program, and it’s just a consolation.
in fact, one of the head coaches openly thanks the kids next to me putting things away, and yet somehow completely ignores me, no matter what i do. even when i’m just there, she ignores me. i can feel in the air when i get there that there is a unspoken dislike toward me.
not to mention this organization that runs the program is in need of funding, and i have been involved in several fundraising events with the organization, and have asked for my parents to donate/ contribute to them as a christmas present and later as a birthday present. i even went out of my way to ask my school for $1,000 to fund it. still, not a word of acknowledgment/ appreciation.
in fact, one of the girls who got an ‘official’ award told me after our practice today to ‘do something’, as she was sitting on the side doing nothing and watching me put things away. i know that most of these kids talk to me behind my back also and give me not respect (of course, since i’m ‘most awkwardly friendly’ to them), but sometimes i get overt disrespect like this.
usually i can take a joke, but this has pushed me into the realm of distrust and suspicion. as an isolated incident, the ‘most awkwardly friendly’ award doesn’t seem much, but put together over multiple seasons (and years) of this, it doesn’t seem isolated to me. it really pisses me off, especially because people aren’t like this to me at school/ other places in life. why only at this activity and nowhere else? why me?