I'm 26,
and recently after geting my PhD I decided to go back to medical and finish my degree. I had my first practical exam today. and completely messed it up. I got paniced and blanked on multiple senarios. I feel so stupid and ashamed of myself. If I fail I don't know what I will do, but I will be so ashamed. I know how people judge those that fail. and it will have an impact on the job I want to get having retakes on my CV.
I feel especially stupid as I am a mature student. There are also people on my course who believe I'm not good enough to pass, and frequently judge me for trying.
I'm thinking of leaving if I have failed, I don't think I am strong enough to retake.
I have been through alot over the past 3 years ( I lost my father and partner and struggled with depression), and think failing at the career I have always wanted is heartbreaking.
Advice please?
and recently after geting my PhD I decided to go back to medical and finish my degree. I had my first practical exam today. and completely messed it up. I got paniced and blanked on multiple senarios. I feel so stupid and ashamed of myself. If I fail I don't know what I will do, but I will be so ashamed. I know how people judge those that fail. and it will have an impact on the job I want to get having retakes on my CV.
I feel especially stupid as I am a mature student. There are also people on my course who believe I'm not good enough to pass, and frequently judge me for trying.
I'm thinking of leaving if I have failed, I don't think I am strong enough to retake.
I have been through alot over the past 3 years ( I lost my father and partner and struggled with depression), and think failing at the career I have always wanted is heartbreaking.
Advice please?