It's occurred to me recently that I have serious deep-rooted issue, although most people don't know.
I'm in my 20's, with an AMAZING set of family and friends. I'm getting married next year to the most amazing man, who is WAY too good for me.
Recently I have been on a wedding planning website, and have been posting multiple times a day, chatting to other brides. I found a good support system there and distraction from the loneliness and stress of school.
I gave some advice to one of the fellow brides a month ago, and people thought I was too harsh and critical. Maybe I was. Anyway, the girls on this board spent DAYS rehashing my old posts and calling me all sorts of horrible names.
I changed screen names, but went back to the forum.
Tonight, one of the brides "caught me" via my IP address and they ripped me again.
I had a panic attack, but I don't know why. This is just the internet.
I stupidly put pictures of me in my wedding dress on this site, and they reposted them, saying how fat and ugly I am.
One of my good friends from home is also getting married soon, and when it dawned on me that maybe SHE looks at these boards, I panicked. I don't want her to know how much of a mess I am.
I have a 100% exam in less than 48 hours and I'm so stupid. I can't focus. I took 1mg of ativan and I still can't sleep or stop worrying.
I'm hopeless and don't know what to do. I'm dreading what the other brides are going to be saying about me tomorrow morning when they all wake up. I have nots in my stomach.
I have all of the tools and resources availble to me to succeed in life, but I just suck.
The site is Euro Brides.
My good friend sees the site, and I worry she's going to see how much of a mess I am, and what the other girls are saying about me. That's what has me so upset.
I'm in my 20's, with an AMAZING set of family and friends. I'm getting married next year to the most amazing man, who is WAY too good for me.
Recently I have been on a wedding planning website, and have been posting multiple times a day, chatting to other brides. I found a good support system there and distraction from the loneliness and stress of school.
I gave some advice to one of the fellow brides a month ago, and people thought I was too harsh and critical. Maybe I was. Anyway, the girls on this board spent DAYS rehashing my old posts and calling me all sorts of horrible names.
I changed screen names, but went back to the forum.
Tonight, one of the brides "caught me" via my IP address and they ripped me again.
I had a panic attack, but I don't know why. This is just the internet.
I stupidly put pictures of me in my wedding dress on this site, and they reposted them, saying how fat and ugly I am.
One of my good friends from home is also getting married soon, and when it dawned on me that maybe SHE looks at these boards, I panicked. I don't want her to know how much of a mess I am.
I have a 100% exam in less than 48 hours and I'm so stupid. I can't focus. I took 1mg of ativan and I still can't sleep or stop worrying.
I'm hopeless and don't know what to do. I'm dreading what the other brides are going to be saying about me tomorrow morning when they all wake up. I have nots in my stomach.
I have all of the tools and resources availble to me to succeed in life, but I just suck.
The site is Euro Brides.
My good friend sees the site, and I worry she's going to see how much of a mess I am, and what the other girls are saying about me. That's what has me so upset.