I feel like I can't handle anything right now (much less what the future holds). Help?

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I feel like my life is just going down each day. I try to stay optimistic and tell myself that I can get through whatever comes my way, but I still can't lay in bed at night without thinking "What the hell is happening in my life?"

I have felt this way for the past few months. I feel like I'm losing my friends, more importantly. I feel like I can't capture their interest anymore and one of my biggest fears is becoming rejected or just ending up alone.
Even if I end up "alone", people always argue "Well, you still always have family." Another worry of mine is that my family won't even want to talk to me in the future. I'm gay and I have a major feeling they won't be accepting of it.

I already just feel alone in this world....I don't know how to handle it all. I just find myself crying at night over stupid worries for my present and future.
What are some ways I can stop my pessimistic view on life and somehow become more independent? How can I handle these hardships that are sure to come my way?

And please don't say religion. I'm not atheist or anything, it's just a common answer and I already know that is an option.... kinda. >___>