I feel i'm in an abusive relashionship?

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but know ones bothered, iv told my family, cpn, old doctors and my support worker but they have done nothing to help me.

I have shcizotypal personality and schizo affective disorder. My partner does not communicate with me and I think he read a book in prison on how to make some one loose their mind as he seems to know everything he is doing to me. My psychosis manifested itself soon after I met him and then I had depression and was in hospital for nine months, they took our to children away because I was so sick. It feels as if I am fighting with an enemy force and can not get away. I have no friends to talk to and I don't feel sorry for myself I just want to get out of this abnormality as I think it may kill me soon.

My partner once told me that when he kills some one they never know what is happening to them. I resort to sleeping with him because it is the only way to get him to show me affection but I have to tell him to ejaculate and some times I go to sleep and wake up with him having intercourse with me, iv tried walking from him when I had the children as I went to a refuge then a safe house and when I just came out of hospital when they took my children away. Now no one wants to help me because I don't have any children and most people think that I am mad, but I can't fight anymore because I feel mentally to weak.

My question is I will be seeing a psychologist for a first time assessment on Wednesday and do you think once I get familiar with her I can mention to her whats going on.
 
I wouldn't wait until you get familiar with your psychologist to tell her about the abusive situation. During an initial visit, a therapist will usually ask about abusive relationships--it would be in your best interest to tell her at this time.

It may be important because there is a posibility that your mental health is affected by the abuse.

You need to realize that abusers use all kinds of tactics to make you think you are crazy. As you have stated, they will also make you scared (like the statement about killing someone). Things like this should be taken seriously. He is the real crazy person in this relationship and you don't know if he's joking or not. In the mental health field, we take these kind of statements very seriously.

Another issue I see here is that you have become isolated. Abusive people are very good at doing this. It ensures that you have no resources and will have to depend completely on him. It also keeps you from getting away from the abuse.

You mentioned going to a safe house, can you go back there, or do you need to have children to use the services? If they turn you away, ask them specifically who can help you. There should be a domestic violence project or program in your area, a domestic abuse shelter, or some form of resource you can use, regardless of whether or not you have children. If at any time you don't feel safe, please call a crisis hotline, I have used this kind of service before and they are very nice...I felt so much better when I got off the phone...Domestic abuse is not an easy thing to deal with but you have to remember that NOBODY, including yourself, deserves to go through this. There is no reason for him to violate you or victimize you, sexually, physically, or emotionally.

There is a lot of help out there for victims of domestic abuse. Telling your new therapist would probally be the best way to go about doing so. She might even be able to put you in touch with some very helpful resources. Please reach out to someone about this.
 
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