agree? I'm a 19 year old man in University. I may look youthful and sometimes act younger than I am , but believe me, I am very mature and responsible. I had to learn very early in my teens that being a kid was only going to make my mental health worse, so to counteract that, my mind matured forcefully. My mom likes to think that she was the one who raised us to be independent and smart, but honestly, I think it's more because we were forced to be independent because we couldn't rely on my parents. They have severe problems. My dad in particular has done so much in my life to cause me to hate in. He has gotten drunk, thrown tantrums on days that were special occasions, woke me and my sisters up with their pointless fighting, called all of us names, actually physically attacked my mom on several occasions, put us all down, and ran away from home a few times declaring that he was leaving for good only to return a few days later with his tail between his legs.
I had an argument with my mom a while back because I simply can't forgive my dad for all of this. Her argument is that he's going to counseling regularly now and is serious about being better. Yeah, I've heard this from her and him so many times in my life that even if it was true, I really don't care. I'm 19 years old and he chooses NOW of all times to get better? **** that. I refuse to put up with this behaviour. He claims he's going to move out and yet he's still here. In fact, I doubt he will ever leave because he's not independent enough to do so. He still drinks, still doesn't get how he's hurt us all, and still tries to talk to me, even though I make it totally clear that I refuse to talk to him. Being around these two has caused me nothing but problems. I suffer from social anxiety and depression. My mom says that she's seen another side of him and that he can be the nicest man sometimes. Yeah, he and every other abuser out there. They only put on that act so they can continue to exert control over their unfortunate victim because they will stay waiting for the nice behaviour.
Unfortunately for my parents, I don't care. I really don't. They have problems. Fine for them. They can drown in sorrow for all I care. If I could help them I would, but frankly, it's impossible. Even if they were serious about getting help, I could only ask why they chose a time when I was finally breaking away from them to do it. My parents continue to fill my head with pessimistic outlooks on how to live life, and I'm ******* sick of it. It actually makes me want to commit suicide. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know that it would be better without my dad. My mom, I don't even know. I definitely need as much time away from her as possible.
What do you think?
I had an argument with my mom a while back because I simply can't forgive my dad for all of this. Her argument is that he's going to counseling regularly now and is serious about being better. Yeah, I've heard this from her and him so many times in my life that even if it was true, I really don't care. I'm 19 years old and he chooses NOW of all times to get better? **** that. I refuse to put up with this behaviour. He claims he's going to move out and yet he's still here. In fact, I doubt he will ever leave because he's not independent enough to do so. He still drinks, still doesn't get how he's hurt us all, and still tries to talk to me, even though I make it totally clear that I refuse to talk to him. Being around these two has caused me nothing but problems. I suffer from social anxiety and depression. My mom says that she's seen another side of him and that he can be the nicest man sometimes. Yeah, he and every other abuser out there. They only put on that act so they can continue to exert control over their unfortunate victim because they will stay waiting for the nice behaviour.
Unfortunately for my parents, I don't care. I really don't. They have problems. Fine for them. They can drown in sorrow for all I care. If I could help them I would, but frankly, it's impossible. Even if they were serious about getting help, I could only ask why they chose a time when I was finally breaking away from them to do it. My parents continue to fill my head with pessimistic outlooks on how to live life, and I'm ******* sick of it. It actually makes me want to commit suicide. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know that it would be better without my dad. My mom, I don't even know. I definitely need as much time away from her as possible.
What do you think?