xxelizabethexplosionxx
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I've dealt with this since i was eight, not liking the way I look. As a kid I would be SO mad at myself for eating but, I couldn't help it. As I got into pre teens i could not eat but, then ended up caving. My weight went to 135 when I was 13 and I was called fat so I began dieting and it did nothing. Finally when I got into high school I had to do something. So I started not eating and losing weight I'm at 108 5'4. I'd really like to be around 90. I'm dating a guy I really love (I'm 17 now by the way) and i don't want to hurt him, he knows all about me growing up and we have been together a while and he already watches me like a hawk. But, i feel sooo sick with myself I need this but, I don't want to hurt him