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Stewert
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started questioning my sexuality? I'm 17 in a few months, I was always identified as just an annoying kid who loved girls. I lloved girls ever since I was 6 and when I hit 13 I was watching girl porn everyday, One day 3 months ago I came home from school, and couldnt wait to get online so i could masturbate to girls as usual, but later that night a really stupid question came across my mind, "Am I gay" and I couldnt stop thinking gay thoughts, I quickly became obsessed,worried,anxous etc, and now 3 months later im just a depressed boy, I think of my future with being with a man and I just feel like blowing my head off. I want to go back to normal, Im upsetting my mother but I can't help but just feel depressed all day every day because of these thoughts, I did try gay porn but I couldnt get aroused, but I do still watch female porn a few times aday and masturbate, But the gay thoughts won't stop, im so obsessed. I can't go out in public because my mind tells me im attracted to all the males out there, I cant see my bestfriend who has been my friend for 13 years because when I do, I get gay thoughts. I have to just sit in my room all day, when i see any male I get these thoughts, I just want to go back to normal? I also had to get pulled out of school because I just can't go on any more, somebody help me, please.