All i ever concentrate on is food. If i plan to go out with friends, i think about how much food i will have to eat. I try to eat 800 calories a day, so far today ive had 700 but probably wont eat anymore, unless im made to eat for dinner. I feel bad for going hungry and i think to myself i really should cut this crap, but then when i eat i feel guilty as hell, and regret it and then i plan my food for the next day, stick to little calories. I use myfitnesspal, it always tells me i need to eat more or i will go into starvation mode or something. But whats sad is, the only reason i think about not-starving is because im scared of gaining weight from starvation mode... otherwise i dont care. My friends make fun of me and say "dont eat that youll get fat" and it really hurts, but i just laugh it off anyway. when i eat something unhealthy, and i just sit down, i wriggle around constantly to burn more calories. Arghh this is getting to me, and if i am developing an eating disorder, how can i get out of this myself?
I dont want an eating disorder !?!?
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