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just found out my long time boyfriend who is now my ex is gay. and he is madly in love with this guy who is straight. he just out of the blue told me, we don't talk much but tonight we talked for hours ti was like we were back to normal. but now im having such a hard time expecting the fact he's gay. i mean im all for Gay rights. i protested for there rights and this and that. i just. idk. he's in collage. and im just about to go to college. im acting all supportive and clam and cool. and i ended telling him a lye saying im dating someone. (he was telling me how happy he was and this and that and he was asking about me and it just came out. i know it's wrong but idk. i panic). i know what he is great, i just in the back of my mind always thought we would end up back together. i just dont understand how im having a hard time adjusting to the fact my first love, the guy i been crazy for for 2 years is now Gay. i want to be ok with this. i don't want to lose him as a friend. how the hell do i become ok with this? im all for gays why am i having such a hard time with this?