i dont feel intimate towards my husband anymore?

Sonika

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My husband in every argument calls me ugly. His mother was here on vacation and said the same to me. She told me i am short, dark skinned, abnormal haired and full of strech marks. I probably made a mistake telling him this and ever since then i hear from him i am ugly almost every other week.

I just got diagnosed with Hyper thyroid and graves disease which make my eyes puffy. He recently told me " go away and first fix your ugly face and scary eyes". He comes to me for sex every weekend and it has been almost 8 months since we had sex. I keep refusing since the day he told me "you are so ugly so I have to turn off the lights when we have sex".

Question i have, i do fantasize about other men but I cannot bring myself to sleep with my husband any more. what is causing this to happen. I have tried very hard to forget all the negativity but the thought of sleeping with him makes me feel very uneasy. I feel extremely conscious and very embarrassed to undress myself in front of him. I also remember all those things when he turns off the lights.

is there any hope? or is the damage done already? we still live under the same roof. I sometimes feel, if we wouldnt have kids together, i would run away from him. I do not feel any attraction towards him at all. i am told by other people , i am pretty and good looking. i never hear good things from my husband, so i never dress up to go outside, do not buy good clothes or try to look pretty. I sometimes even forget to look in the mirror before stepping out.

Am i going crazy?? :(

please reply and thank you for your time
I have told him all this millions of times and then he says "you are beautiful, allright" and then goes about his business and repeats what he has said again. I feel like a door mat really :(
 
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