rubberduckyofdeath
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very special friend. Help? Its not like I won't meet other people and make other friends but this particular person means so much to me and I'd do anything to win back her trust in me. We bonded from the day we met. I'm quite a weird person but she totally got me and we shared such a fun and caring friendship. But a couple of months ago things went horribly wrong. I had a bit of winter depression and started to act sad and I hate to say a little clingy around her. She didn't like my attitude so began to back off and this made me even more upset so finally a very big argument happened and we haven't spoken since.
We've both cooled down now. Its been 2 months and we still see each other with our mutual friends around but we are not speaking directly. I've cleared my head out a little and have a more calm and positive attitude as I realise I acted unreasonable before. I'm trying to change for myself but also because I don't want to lose her. We're at such a fragile stage now. We can be civil with one another but there is still a lot of awkward tension when we're left alone. None of us knows what to say. I know that I can never bring up what happened in the past because it will just start everything off again. I just want to be friends again. I don't think she knows whether to trust me or not and its very difficult for her to speak to me because she's afraid things might go bad again. I'm saying little things but I can't bring myself to have a direct casual conversation because I'm scared of making everything uncomfortable. I tried apologizing to her face back when things were heated and I could see how awkward it made her so I need to be more subtle. What can I do? I value her so much and don't want to leave things this way. We are supposed to be going to a concert together soon (with a couple of other friends) and I want to be able to enjoy it with her rather than us being weird around each other. Help!
We've both cooled down now. Its been 2 months and we still see each other with our mutual friends around but we are not speaking directly. I've cleared my head out a little and have a more calm and positive attitude as I realise I acted unreasonable before. I'm trying to change for myself but also because I don't want to lose her. We're at such a fragile stage now. We can be civil with one another but there is still a lot of awkward tension when we're left alone. None of us knows what to say. I know that I can never bring up what happened in the past because it will just start everything off again. I just want to be friends again. I don't think she knows whether to trust me or not and its very difficult for her to speak to me because she's afraid things might go bad again. I'm saying little things but I can't bring myself to have a direct casual conversation because I'm scared of making everything uncomfortable. I tried apologizing to her face back when things were heated and I could see how awkward it made her so I need to be more subtle. What can I do? I value her so much and don't want to leave things this way. We are supposed to be going to a concert together soon (with a couple of other friends) and I want to be able to enjoy it with her rather than us being weird around each other. Help!