I have no friends.
My family aren't good listeners, I can't talk to my mum, she's more depressed than I am, she gets depressed and it just gets awkward, my dad is a big time talker, whenever I try and talk to him he listens, but when I talk for one minute, he then goes off talking for about 10 minutes, he's a nice guy, I love my dad, but he's not a great guy to talk to when you need to talk, but when I tell him that he is going off on a bog ramble, he apologies, but he doesn't learn lol, he just does it again and again, and the same with my sister, she's nice person, but she does the same as my dad.
I went to go see a therapist, and we live in the UK, and the guy only sees me for about 5 mins per month, and he tells me to go on a website called beating the blue, and when I tried to kill myself, he said that he just wanted to put me on meds, and told me to buy some book, he does give me a minute to talk, but he doesn't talk very nicely, and when the session is over, doesn't even say goodbye, he just stops talking and looks at me in a "What?...." kind of way.
I used to have an awesome therapist, he was called Brian, awesome guy, ageing hippie kind of guy, liked the same music and stuff as I do, so he got me, you know, and I was between 14-16 when I was seeing him, but now I'm 20, I asked my gp if I could just have one our with Brian again because I trust that guy the most with this, but because I'm not a teen any more, they still say no when I ask for 15 minutes on the phone with him, Brian doesn't know I want to talk with him, I'm just being denied.
I kind of speak about it on here a lot, I know I'm not supposed to, but I really want to say these thing because nobody listens, I can't have a conversation about this, but I just wanted to say.
My family aren't good listeners, I can't talk to my mum, she's more depressed than I am, she gets depressed and it just gets awkward, my dad is a big time talker, whenever I try and talk to him he listens, but when I talk for one minute, he then goes off talking for about 10 minutes, he's a nice guy, I love my dad, but he's not a great guy to talk to when you need to talk, but when I tell him that he is going off on a bog ramble, he apologies, but he doesn't learn lol, he just does it again and again, and the same with my sister, she's nice person, but she does the same as my dad.
I went to go see a therapist, and we live in the UK, and the guy only sees me for about 5 mins per month, and he tells me to go on a website called beating the blue, and when I tried to kill myself, he said that he just wanted to put me on meds, and told me to buy some book, he does give me a minute to talk, but he doesn't talk very nicely, and when the session is over, doesn't even say goodbye, he just stops talking and looks at me in a "What?...." kind of way.
I used to have an awesome therapist, he was called Brian, awesome guy, ageing hippie kind of guy, liked the same music and stuff as I do, so he got me, you know, and I was between 14-16 when I was seeing him, but now I'm 20, I asked my gp if I could just have one our with Brian again because I trust that guy the most with this, but because I'm not a teen any more, they still say no when I ask for 15 minutes on the phone with him, Brian doesn't know I want to talk with him, I'm just being denied.
I kind of speak about it on here a lot, I know I'm not supposed to, but I really want to say these thing because nobody listens, I can't have a conversation about this, but I just wanted to say.