I have been having trouble sleeping for a few weeks now because of my work, and school, and other life responsibilities. When I am at these places or interacting with these people I have to be a lot more loud, outgoing, social, amiable, etc. then I am naturally. I feel like everybody is so wound-up! Nobody ever allows me to relax!!!! All people do is go, go, go, go, go, go, go! And everybody always demands something out of me. Every single class period I am demanded of being a social butterfly because no one ever shuts up in my classes, and at work it's the exact same thing! (I work in sales/retail) I am not programmed to talk that much and cater to people's social needs as much as what people are expecting me to give to them!
I just don't understand how other people get to sleep when they act crazy all day... it feels like everyone is pressuring me to act as crazy as they are, everyone relies on me to do all the work for our assignment and get us an A, every customer, of course, wants to tell me about their whole life story which I don't really understand why but I am very polite and I fake being equally needy/? I am not built like this, I am sorry. I need to relax, I need to calm down, I need to be quiet. But I can't because from when I wake up to when I lay down it's go, go, go, go, go, go, go!!!! If I need to make a meal it has to be done within 5-10 minutes, it has to be quickly because my family demands me to do other things for them or maybe they are going to use what I am in the kitchen and invade my cooking space (they're pretty ******* pushy) so I can't even finish!
I cannot meet everyone's demands. I can do it at work, I have to it's my job and I get paid I will be as giving, as social, as loud, and fakey-friendly as I have to but at school I guess I just won't be able to have any friends (they demand you scream and laugh with them about vulgar jokes about sex and **** and a lot of filthy teenager things... that THEY think are funny) and at home I'm up **** creek without a paddle. I keep trying to relax but my family demands me to talk to them about nothing or go with them everywhere, to the store, to the movies, out to eat, to another family member's house, to all of these church things, to parties... it's every day there's something!
I am SO HAPPY that everyone likes me so much that they all want to do things with me but I can't relax, I can't sleep (someone will call me at midnight and ask me to spend the night at their house which will obviously be another night of no sleep)
I don't want them to get mad, I don't want them to abandon me, I feel like people are just using me... but I don't even care anymore. I need sleep. I can't sleep because I am so wound-up. All day no one else relaxes (from what I can see) they either work all day or are super loud and the partying type (I feel like I can only act this way to get people to notice me, or like me...
) But obviously they go to sleep. Somehow. They calm down. One moment they are really hyper and needy and the next they sleep?
HOW?
It's been 2 and a half weeks since I have slept normally I've been getting 2-6 hours a night. I know this is the cause. What can I do? Please tell me. I am desperate.
And I can't... relax, I can't come down from having to be so loud and do things so fast when I am naturally a very relaxed much more mellow quieter person. I don't talk for the sake of talking, what I say has meaning or I talk because I like the person. No one else I know seems to be like that. They stay up 'till 4 am partying, playing video games or having sex anyway... I don't do any of that.
PLEASE HELP? SUGGESTIONS? I don't know what to do, but I have to do something or else I am ******.
I just don't understand how other people get to sleep when they act crazy all day... it feels like everyone is pressuring me to act as crazy as they are, everyone relies on me to do all the work for our assignment and get us an A, every customer, of course, wants to tell me about their whole life story which I don't really understand why but I am very polite and I fake being equally needy/? I am not built like this, I am sorry. I need to relax, I need to calm down, I need to be quiet. But I can't because from when I wake up to when I lay down it's go, go, go, go, go, go, go!!!! If I need to make a meal it has to be done within 5-10 minutes, it has to be quickly because my family demands me to do other things for them or maybe they are going to use what I am in the kitchen and invade my cooking space (they're pretty ******* pushy) so I can't even finish!
I cannot meet everyone's demands. I can do it at work, I have to it's my job and I get paid I will be as giving, as social, as loud, and fakey-friendly as I have to but at school I guess I just won't be able to have any friends (they demand you scream and laugh with them about vulgar jokes about sex and **** and a lot of filthy teenager things... that THEY think are funny) and at home I'm up **** creek without a paddle. I keep trying to relax but my family demands me to talk to them about nothing or go with them everywhere, to the store, to the movies, out to eat, to another family member's house, to all of these church things, to parties... it's every day there's something!
I am SO HAPPY that everyone likes me so much that they all want to do things with me but I can't relax, I can't sleep (someone will call me at midnight and ask me to spend the night at their house which will obviously be another night of no sleep)
I don't want them to get mad, I don't want them to abandon me, I feel like people are just using me... but I don't even care anymore. I need sleep. I can't sleep because I am so wound-up. All day no one else relaxes (from what I can see) they either work all day or are super loud and the partying type (I feel like I can only act this way to get people to notice me, or like me...
) But obviously they go to sleep. Somehow. They calm down. One moment they are really hyper and needy and the next they sleep?HOW?
It's been 2 and a half weeks since I have slept normally I've been getting 2-6 hours a night. I know this is the cause. What can I do? Please tell me. I am desperate.
And I can't... relax, I can't come down from having to be so loud and do things so fast when I am naturally a very relaxed much more mellow quieter person. I don't talk for the sake of talking, what I say has meaning or I talk because I like the person. No one else I know seems to be like that. They stay up 'till 4 am partying, playing video games or having sex anyway... I don't do any of that.
PLEASE HELP? SUGGESTIONS? I don't know what to do, but I have to do something or else I am ******.