My now ex-boyfriend and my best friend both think I display symptoms of schizophrenia. They have never met each other and came to their opinions independently.
First off I've had horrible visual and auditory hallucinations for about two months.They only happened before I fell asleep and when I woke up, initially, but in the last 3 weeks I've had hallucinations during the day. I usually see people or animals for a few seconds before they disappear. Second, I "remember" things that didn't really happen. I'll say, "remember when we did *blank*", and I'm told it never happened. That has occurred about 5 times this year. Finally, I take many, many things as signs from God. There was a spider on my front door and I took that as a sign that something bad was going to happen if I stayed, so I stayed over my boyfriend's house for a few days until I was sure the danger had passed. Of course, I received another sign saying it was alright to return.
Now I used to be pretty religious, but recently my faith has not been very strong. I believe that I'm hallucinating because I'm being punished for sometimes not believing any more. I've let demons inside of me and Satan has taken over my mind. I have horrible uncontrollable thoughts of causing harm to people, and sometimes I think horrible things about myself. Frequently I have to yell or turn my music up really loud to stop these thoughts and images. I don't hear voices of other people, its just unwanted, uncontrolled thoughts.
I have an appointment with a therapist, but I don't trust the medical community because they only try to label people. I honestly believe this is a spiritual problem and that medication will not help anything. I need a good spiritual counselor, not a psychiatrist.
What are anybody else's thoughts. Non Christian opinions are fine. Christian perspectives are especially welcome. By the way, I'm 25 and all of this has been going on for about 3 months. I didn't really start to worry until the daytime hallucinations started. Now I'm worrying non stop.
First off I've had horrible visual and auditory hallucinations for about two months.They only happened before I fell asleep and when I woke up, initially, but in the last 3 weeks I've had hallucinations during the day. I usually see people or animals for a few seconds before they disappear. Second, I "remember" things that didn't really happen. I'll say, "remember when we did *blank*", and I'm told it never happened. That has occurred about 5 times this year. Finally, I take many, many things as signs from God. There was a spider on my front door and I took that as a sign that something bad was going to happen if I stayed, so I stayed over my boyfriend's house for a few days until I was sure the danger had passed. Of course, I received another sign saying it was alright to return.
Now I used to be pretty religious, but recently my faith has not been very strong. I believe that I'm hallucinating because I'm being punished for sometimes not believing any more. I've let demons inside of me and Satan has taken over my mind. I have horrible uncontrollable thoughts of causing harm to people, and sometimes I think horrible things about myself. Frequently I have to yell or turn my music up really loud to stop these thoughts and images. I don't hear voices of other people, its just unwanted, uncontrolled thoughts.
I have an appointment with a therapist, but I don't trust the medical community because they only try to label people. I honestly believe this is a spiritual problem and that medication will not help anything. I need a good spiritual counselor, not a psychiatrist.
What are anybody else's thoughts. Non Christian opinions are fine. Christian perspectives are especially welcome. By the way, I'm 25 and all of this has been going on for about 3 months. I didn't really start to worry until the daytime hallucinations started. Now I'm worrying non stop.