van hartley
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I just can't go on anymore! I am sick of feeling guilty about the little stupid things I like doing, like having a few drinks, or listening to the music that I grew up LOVING, like Pink Floyd and Black Sabbath! I'm sorry, but I can't handle all the restrictions that Christianity has placed on me! It's TOO MUCH. I can't do it. I love God And I want to do the right thing, but I can't be holy...it's making me literally GO INSANE. I will be in the mental if I continue to think that my friends, family and maybe myself are all going to hell. I live in fear of the rapture constantly, fear that the Lord will strike me down dead because my repenting wasn't from the heart. I can't read the Bible anymore, because it scares me so much. I can't live by those guidelines, i'm sorry, but I tried and it is not possible for me to do.
I am not saying I'm becoming an atheist, but I really feel so much pressure lately and my brain feels like it's going to SNAP. What should I do? Crack open a case of beer and listen to Dark Side of the Moon?? Or read my Bible and listen to some Gospel music? All I want to do is love the Lord, listen to some Pink Floyd, and play some cards with my friends while I have a few beers. Can't God understand that His idea of perfection is IMPOSSIBLE? Can't He just accept me for who I am? Instead of pressuring me to change into someone I'm NOT? I still love Him, can't He love me back just as I am???
I am not saying I'm becoming an atheist, but I really feel so much pressure lately and my brain feels like it's going to SNAP. What should I do? Crack open a case of beer and listen to Dark Side of the Moon?? Or read my Bible and listen to some Gospel music? All I want to do is love the Lord, listen to some Pink Floyd, and play some cards with my friends while I have a few beers. Can't God understand that His idea of perfection is IMPOSSIBLE? Can't He just accept me for who I am? Instead of pressuring me to change into someone I'm NOT? I still love Him, can't He love me back just as I am???