ultimate_inferno
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I am someone with quite a low self-esteem and I have had this problem for quite a long time. I also fell in love with a girl whom I no longer see anymore. She broke up with me, so I was still in a lot of hurt, now the pain is easing and I feel I can move on. Now I have another problem within myself, I don't feel attractive and this is really depressing me, especially as I have had positive comments from women in the past, but on very few occasions and I didn't act on them. I go out to a pub/club (well its a place for students really, I'm 27, but look 24) every friday and Saturday, I try to dance with girls, but they just don't want to know and it gets even more painful when before I go out I look at myself in the mirror and I don't feel like I'm unattractive, yet when I go out and try to talk to girls they put on weird faces and then I get all self-consious about my looks and think maybe there is something wrong with me, I can't help but feel this way. When I try to talk to these girls the girls look at me with some weird faces and that hurts so much. I guess I look bad to them. The confusion is I have had some good looking women pay attention to me, but when I'm in a pub/club scene the lights dim and I guess it affects my appearance. I don't know I am even getting more depressed writing this.
I don't know what to do, whats right. I hate it when girls I try to talk to reject me and go talking to someone else, just feel as though I am going to be alone at this rate. I don't go for girls who I don't fancy I can't do that to myself or them, I don't know how to take rejection, it is hard when those rejecting me are laughing at me or pulling weird faces like some monster is talking to them, which I am clearly not given the positive comment I recieved from the past, problem is I don't often think about these and I'm left all disappointed when I can't attract a women I like. Ughhh who do I have to go and see? I don't want to be put on anti-depressants I don't want any medication I just don't know what to think or believe.
I don't know what to do, whats right. I hate it when girls I try to talk to reject me and go talking to someone else, just feel as though I am going to be alone at this rate. I don't go for girls who I don't fancy I can't do that to myself or them, I don't know how to take rejection, it is hard when those rejecting me are laughing at me or pulling weird faces like some monster is talking to them, which I am clearly not given the positive comment I recieved from the past, problem is I don't often think about these and I'm left all disappointed when I can't attract a women I like. Ughhh who do I have to go and see? I don't want to be put on anti-depressants I don't want any medication I just don't know what to think or believe.