imported_Jean Valjean
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I am gay and in closeted. I have many problems like people teasing me. Also I am in love with a straight guy who doesn't even know I exist and is 8 years elder to me. All this is contributing to me getting bad grades and not being social. Also I am very scared of people or change because I feel that I will embarrass myself because of my sexuality.
My mother doesnt know anything about this. She just thinks that I am depressed and my problems are nothing. I screwd up in school and she is madly pissed at me.
I suggested that I get a home tutor for physics and chemistry. When I met the teacher, he was a bit rude to me. And physics and chemistry are like my toughest subjects. So, I just got tensed that with such a strict teacher and such a difficult subject, how will i ever understand the concepts.
And due to this my mom has become really pissed. I want to take tuitions but now she is really pissed at me. She stormed out of the house and all and now she says that she wont send me for any tuitions. I want to improve my grade. The main thing that scared me was that I want to go for my further studies to Canada and now she said that I will have to study here in India because I cannot take care of myself.
She doesnt know that the main reason I want to go to Canada is to come out totally there.
But I dont know what to tell her. All is a mess. I cannot tell her I am gay because she is homophobic.
What should I do?
With my problems, how should I concentrate on studies to get a good grade?
Please help!
Thanks!
My mother doesnt know anything about this. She just thinks that I am depressed and my problems are nothing. I screwd up in school and she is madly pissed at me.
I suggested that I get a home tutor for physics and chemistry. When I met the teacher, he was a bit rude to me. And physics and chemistry are like my toughest subjects. So, I just got tensed that with such a strict teacher and such a difficult subject, how will i ever understand the concepts.
And due to this my mom has become really pissed. I want to take tuitions but now she is really pissed at me. She stormed out of the house and all and now she says that she wont send me for any tuitions. I want to improve my grade. The main thing that scared me was that I want to go for my further studies to Canada and now she said that I will have to study here in India because I cannot take care of myself.
She doesnt know that the main reason I want to go to Canada is to come out totally there.
But I dont know what to tell her. All is a mess. I cannot tell her I am gay because she is homophobic.
What should I do?
With my problems, how should I concentrate on studies to get a good grade?
Please help!
Thanks!