...him but were talking marriage? I do care for him very much. I just can't take the sinning part. I kept thinking that we were getting closer and closer to marriage and then we won't have to sin anymore. I know Jesus is our Lord, and he believes in Jesus too and we were reading the Holy Bible together and trying to follow God's word. I pray to God for His will to be done with us, so if we are supposed to be together we will, if not, we won't. I have faith in God that whatever happens is His will!
Well, now I think me and this man were so close to being commited, but I found out my thoughts that I had HSV-2 were correct and I possibly gave it to him. Now I now that is a very hard thing to go through, I am sorry and have really felt my shame and repented and asked him and Holy God for forgivness. I was happy that he still wanted to be with me after all that. I thought we overcame a hurdle and he stayed around and I thought another thing that shows he is going to stay around.
Then it was his turn to show me something, after we went through the thing I did, I found out when we argued about a guy asking me out one time he went to the beach with another girl on a day we were arguing. He didn't tell me, I found out after we went through all the stuff about the thing I did to him. I found out because she posted a picture of them at the beach and it had that date on the pictures. So that same day I saw that picture was the day after we got back together after finding out about he hsv2 thing. I was willing to forgive him for that, but then I noticed that day he also posted on his facebook about going to the Beach the next day. She said she can't wait. So not only did he go last time we were arguing, but then again and right after we made up from what I did.
Well he did go to the beach again, the whole weekend as posts on their facebooks showed. I didn't contact him that whole weekend and he called me that Monday over and over and over until I answered he said that I shouldn't have been reading his facebook when he is the one who added himself as a friend on my page. He said I still shouldn't have looked at his page or hers because we're not together.
We had been through so much and he and I spend time with our families and he did ask me to be his girl once about a year ago before our ups and downs and I said not yet. So I was bascially just waiting for him to ask again. And even though I have a hard time with personal issues an commitment, I thought maybe we could work on them together. But I am tried to forgive him for what he did with that girl, and he still wants to be with me and see me but he is not even admitting what he did with her. Now I am insecure and unsure if he is just playing me. I am trying to follow my heart which says he cares about me, but I feel like just seeing him this last weekend and saying goodbye.
The thing is everytime I lose him, I feel it so much in my heart like never before for a guy. I don't know if that is God's way of saying keep him around, or not? I just know I don't want to go on sinning and need a commitment from him, but with this girl I am scared if I ask him he will go running to her and I don't know if I should even have to ask him or just let him go for him not asking me?
Thank you for your time, and your answers in the name of Jesus I pray for God's will. Amen
Well, now I think me and this man were so close to being commited, but I found out my thoughts that I had HSV-2 were correct and I possibly gave it to him. Now I now that is a very hard thing to go through, I am sorry and have really felt my shame and repented and asked him and Holy God for forgivness. I was happy that he still wanted to be with me after all that. I thought we overcame a hurdle and he stayed around and I thought another thing that shows he is going to stay around.
Then it was his turn to show me something, after we went through the thing I did, I found out when we argued about a guy asking me out one time he went to the beach with another girl on a day we were arguing. He didn't tell me, I found out after we went through all the stuff about the thing I did to him. I found out because she posted a picture of them at the beach and it had that date on the pictures. So that same day I saw that picture was the day after we got back together after finding out about he hsv2 thing. I was willing to forgive him for that, but then I noticed that day he also posted on his facebook about going to the Beach the next day. She said she can't wait. So not only did he go last time we were arguing, but then again and right after we made up from what I did.
Well he did go to the beach again, the whole weekend as posts on their facebooks showed. I didn't contact him that whole weekend and he called me that Monday over and over and over until I answered he said that I shouldn't have been reading his facebook when he is the one who added himself as a friend on my page. He said I still shouldn't have looked at his page or hers because we're not together.
We had been through so much and he and I spend time with our families and he did ask me to be his girl once about a year ago before our ups and downs and I said not yet. So I was bascially just waiting for him to ask again. And even though I have a hard time with personal issues an commitment, I thought maybe we could work on them together. But I am tried to forgive him for what he did with that girl, and he still wants to be with me and see me but he is not even admitting what he did with her. Now I am insecure and unsure if he is just playing me. I am trying to follow my heart which says he cares about me, but I feel like just seeing him this last weekend and saying goodbye.
The thing is everytime I lose him, I feel it so much in my heart like never before for a guy. I don't know if that is God's way of saying keep him around, or not? I just know I don't want to go on sinning and need a commitment from him, but with this girl I am scared if I ask him he will go running to her and I don't know if I should even have to ask him or just let him go for him not asking me?
Thank you for your time, and your answers in the name of Jesus I pray for God's will. Amen