I am hurting over my ex...when should I move on? after Ive tried or just walk away now?

He changed his number. I've emailed him 5 times. Im not sure if its because he rarely checks his emails...I've called his Business phone and left 1 message.
I am very careful about not becoming a stalker. The next step is going to his work and waiting out front to get my chance to talk to him.
If he tells me its over, don't worry, although I will hurt, I will not pursue. But, my question here is, am I doing the right thing trying? Because I feel if I don't at least try till I get a response from him, I wont give up.
History; He's separated. 2 teenage kids. We were together 2 years and I got tired of it, when the relationship hadnt changed, on his part. Finally, when I told him lets take a step back because I was hurting that that I felt second, he said, wait one more year till I can make things official to end things.
I refused, and stood my ground. We stayed in touch but, he distanced himself from me.
Now, 6 months later. I am dying. I cant live without him.
I love him and regret being impatient. What should I do? He feels I "threw" him away, but I was hurting emotionally from his situation.
Am I crazy? Should I let him go? For the 1st time in my life, I am really trying to fight for this man. I have never, ever done this. I always just walk away...but, this time I just cant! He's a good man! a good dad.
He gets who I am and no one knows me like him. I am almost 40 and I am very independent, no kids and I have a good head on my shoulders. Still, with this emotional issue. I need some insight Please help!
also, no smart ass answers please. Right now, that's not going to help.
Thanks!
 
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