I am getting the urge to commit rape. I'm really scared because I was raped when I was 9 and that destroyed me and I don't want to do that to another person. I am a sadist which means I enjoy other peoples pain sexually but I am not a psychopath at all. I have a conscience and that is why I am so freaked out by this. I was tortured pretty badly during the assault and I am having the urge to torture other people. I sometimes want to kill people. Please help.
