...kind of phsycological disord? well, I am very strange kind of personality,let me explain, When I see some of my friends or even my close relatives are having a good career, or a success I feel jelous. Some time I love my relatives and some time I feel very hate for them. when I see a successful person, I repent, why I did not do hard work, and why I am not on a good position, I am 39 years old now. having multipile degrees, and doing job in different field. some time I feel I have just ruined my self, I could not get a good career, no fame, no wealth, this things is self killing. at times I am very kind but at other I time I would feel very jelous and would even like to hear that some one is in trouble. Can any body help me, what I should do, do I need councilling.