I am 7 months pregnant and have OCD

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Brendon

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Folks, I have been suffering from OCD for the past 8 years. I was on medication till I decided to get pregnant. Ever since I have been pregnant, I have refrained from any kind of medicine out of fear that it might harm my unborn child.

Things have not been so bad during my pregnancy, but I suffered severe bouts of depression(Obssesive and violent thoughts) atleast twice during my pregnancy so far.

Once I begin suffering, I constantly kind of seek approval from my dear ones regarding their love for me. The biggest fear I have developed is that my loved ones will disown me for the thoughts that I have. This leads to a lot of suspicion from my side regarding their behaviour towards me. In the sense, if they fail to act according to my expectations, I immediately conclude that they do not love me any more. This leads to a lot of angry and violent thoughts regarding them such as("Let them die", or "I want to kill them" etc.). This vicious cycle is just tearing me apart. I can hardly concentrate on the task at hand during such times and totally lack peace of mind.
 
Have you told your OB doctor about this? Maybe your meds are perfectly safe to take while pregnant. Your mental health is important too. You're going to be mentally and emotionally exhausted by the time your baby makes its appearance. I think you have nothing to lose and much to gain by telling your doctor what you have just told us. It feels miserable to have no peace of mind. I hope your doctor can help you. Your loved ones most likely know that you have troubling thoughts, but I am certain that they don't know what you are thinking, and they certainly would never hate you for your thoughts. Just try to assume that you are loved. Surely you are. Keep us posted and take care!
 
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